Paulus Spiritual Walk

Sunday, October 25, 2009

The Returning

Yeah! I am back in Singapore! Wow, the whole trip is really fun! at the same time, its like my dream land, and when I am back in Singapore, This is reality. Anyways, there are few things I wanna take down these few days,

Start out by Wednesday, something amazing happen! I checked a lot of scripts, and the good news, I passed all! except for chemistry ( but science can make it since covered by physics which do quite well! and mother tongue not sure yet..OH the most important of all, Maths in my class has 3 passes ONLY! at first I was really losing faith since only 3 pass are like my class mates who are more Zai at maths turn out that, I PASSED 40/80 on the spot! you know how? I also don't know! HAHA! well, firstly few weeks ago when I did my test, I didn't complete one question in section B which holds 14 marks which means I am only left with 66 marks left..plus careless mistakes, 60% i will likely to fail..well basically, its impossible for me to pass, and God did it! Wow, throughout the whole lesson I was like, stunned and amazed that, this is truly not by me, not by my brains nor hands, but by God who performed this miracle in this lesson!

After school, I rushed home get changed then go airport! finally! then after that went of straight to my my aunt and my uncle wedding anniversary! enjoyed good food and meet old relatives haha..then the whole thing continues till I reached home and the next day begins.

Normal stuffs and went out to do some shopping before my grandma's big birthday celebration.
another thing that God really blessed me was, me & my sis was chosen by my dad is sing for my grandma's celebration and guess what? it will begin in hours, and we haven't even decided on the song..wow..trouble huh?so my sis and I agreed, we just do what we can and quickly chiong to prep and ended up when it started we haven't even prep properly..so since there was a keyboardist so bo bian..just pick one song and sing together with my sis, and my cousin came along to help. picked "you raise me up" pretty common song I believe? What happen was, me my sis and my cousin just sang what we can and ended up, It was a SUCCESS! HOW??? I also don't know again. HAHA!

Many said that we can sing but to my sis I won't be surprised la but when many relatives say I can sing I was literally WOWED! Me can sing? what? that never happen before! but this is truly God, because just now,my sis and we prayed for it before and we did what we can, and God helped us with what we can to make it a success! probably the holy spirit change my voice haha!
But through this I really thank god for it! and the whole thing was an enjoyable fellowship with the whole family and I also want to thank god for my grandma!

Summarizing the few days something which I learn.

The following few days, go shopping, new clothes, brought home old clothes also, ate indo food ( Yummy!) I go out so often that I have sooo..little time to practice drum..probably only few hours..T_T but thank god cause when I played I got my coordinating right! played lesser games, I was actually just savoring the moment of being in Indo. its just very enjoyable. even if its as simple as going mall with my family.

Few days ago, I was just reading Wild At Heart, I was remembering the means of being Dangerous and Adventurous, truly Christian men are BORED! the real adventure comes not when we go to real war, but when we choose to begin by stepping out of comfort zone situations for God!

Yesterday afternoon, another cousin came to visit us and I just realised that, I become an uncle le! I got a nephew wow! haha, so we are just like looking at the baby and stuff then it started crying as usual...that is what babies do right? suddenly my cousin just said " oh he is tired and wants to sleep " so my cousin carried him and just sway and tap him and he really kept quiet and go to sleep! at first I was a bit surprised! how do you know if a baby's cry? do my cousin speak baby language? nope! no one knows a baby better than their parents! interesting isn't it!

Then on the night time, I watched a recording of a conference of a pastor in Australia which my brother went to. He was just so called performing like the scene of Job. other than finding the whole performance interesting, what taught me was the heart of integrity that Job has. [ Job 1:6-22 ] read it and truly this should be the heart that we have.

I really enjoyed the whole trip, It really have drawn me closer to god. Well, I knew that when I return, things gonna get started! and I need to start serving, but I the most important thing is, again, being dangerous and adventurous does not require war, but stepping out of the comfort zone should be where we go! My studies getting heavier, more people to take care, admin things to work on. outreaching, and more and more these are endless! but truly! I have God with me!
What else do I need? Amen!?

1:54 AM

Thursday, October 15, 2009

You Are Everything

Yeah! Exams Are OVER!!! Hohoho!!! I am free!!! my exams ended today!!! So after papers, head home. Used computer for awhile then, my mom offered if I want to join her and my bro to go out. so alright better than slacking at home! so I went out with them to Vivo city..then accompany my brother do some shopping while my mom head somewhere else around vivo to buy her own stuffs..

After a hard time running from shops to shops and back to shops again, finally bought new clothes, muahaha! but I gotta pay for my own though +_+. so no more spending unnesscessarily gotta spend wisely! Then walk up and down around..again..and finally reach the MRT..so my mom head home while me and my bro go find my sis to go Far East for some more shopping..

Then after the short trip, reached far east and meet my sis to hang around, Up and Down again..still found some stuffs my brother needed, then we were walking up the top floor of the building when we noticed that the top floor is all the places for people to eat like small food court like that..so my bro wanted to go down and look around somewhere else, when suddenly I just felt the prompting to continue exploring the whole floor..and so we agreed and continue to look around..when we stumbled upon a Christian Bookstore. So we entered and have a look around..
then suddenly, the music which the store is playing, catches my attention.

Its You Are Everything - By Matthew West, Enjoy!

This song really encourages me a lot that God is really EVERYTHING, What I wanted, What I needed, What I live for..words just fail to express, but God is truly EVERYTHING and everyday my life is really filled with hope every moment I know he is there with me. Hope you are encouraged too! By the way this is the first time I hear this song! so as I think through just now that incident, I know that, Its not a coincidence in that prompting to continue exploring the whole floor of Far East but its an encouragement that God wants to give me.

So after that I head off down to continue my shopping with my bro! head around Wisma, Back and forth to Taka, here and there till finally shop a few more and head home, and back here I am! Thank God For God! =) Amen! I gotta go first! Nights!

8:59 AM

Monday, October 12, 2009

Birthday Affirmation Card & STUDY!

Hello! I am back, haven't post for one week! haha, cause exams are here. Therefore I need to study hard these several days. Firstly I just want to thank god for my Unit-EastD
For giving such a nice birthday card!

Though some are just writting card while some really made a lot of effort drawing or some prepared the whole card print but Its every single word & printings,slashes & sketches..etc which makes this card a master piece and complete!
Really Thank God for them =)

So for yesterday, while my dad, mom, bro & sis happily hang out..walk around etc.. Me gotta be alone at home studying T_T..
Well Exams, duh.. I was really troubled for I am gonna have both Maths & POA Paper 2 on one day.. so then studying at home is such a bore..So i studied with Hao, Sam & Darren at west mac!
Glad to have them there for I needed much help!
After studying few Hours..Darren went off first..And not long later Paul came to join us too!
Then after studying for few more hours..me and sam left first and go home.
I really thank god for him cause he was quite the one encouraging me for I am really troubled cause I need to go home have my dinner and I still have 6 chapters and POA to revise..
So when I reached home, have my dinner and studied..For long hours till everyone is asleep! haha, I didn't expect that to happen too! but Thank God I manage to finished Maths by 2.00
too tired to revise POA. so I just went off to sleep!

so Today! Wah guess what! Good News! Maths was easy! majority of the questions I studied came out! haha! woah is amazing man! but sadly, section B last question I left it untouched +_+ cause I was too focused on the hard questions and left that 12Marks gone! Oh God!
Then POA Paper 2, got some trouble with it cause never study! aiyah! well I did what I can!
so head home, took a Nap, then went off to airport and study with andrew and darren..ended up waste quite a while playing around..ahh! but when things settle down I manage to finish confidently revised Physics..
Now I gotta go first! still need to revise Chemistry and Social Studies..
Nights! =)

6:07 AM

Monday, October 5, 2009

Happy Birthday Prana

5th October

Yeah! actually I wanted to post yesterday, but its too late so never mind..just want to first thank god for all the people who gave me some wishes! =D Morning, go school, first things first, my hair got caught..+_+ not really pleasant start for your birthday isn't it? well! but since its my birthday, its for me to decide on how I want it to be! its all about a perspective! because Everyday is the day that the Lord has made! =D

So have normal lessons, then off to the barber shop..got hair cut, go back school..for remedial but surprisingly..ITS Canceled! HAHA! so went home, and take a nap..sleep till 6plus..wake up then went out for dinner! pretty simple wasn't it? so went to Astons for good dinner at Cathay, together with my mom,bro & sis. Enjoyed our time haha! then go eat Tauhuay. then go home. celebrated by my family, received money wrapped in red packets from relatives, New earpiece! ( thank god for them for buying cause I always needed a new one! ) =D and a new wallet! haha! I really thank god for these presents from them! =)

Next received a small surprise! from the Dmm's. who were actually hiding near the BBQ pit, haha, didn't expected it though! it was meant to be a surprise! haha, thank god for them too! its quite late but they still make time just for that short celebration is good enough! then prayed for my 3 wishes, first is to do well for my exams! to really glorify god with my results! second, is for my meh-meh..to really grow in God! third and last one, is a secret wish I had with God! and for god to make a way for that wish to know that it will come to pass!

Then after prayer, have cakes smashed into my face..as usual..however not so bad when it actually happen the second time when I am eating it..haha then begin wiping my handful of messy chocolate cake on Qing's face & Fon which only do abit..Next time I will get him!

Then send them home! and eat cake with my family..Haha..despite its a pretty simple celebration, Really thank God for this day that he have given to me! Amen! =)

11:39 PM

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Just laugh it away & do what is right.

Yeah! back again! Today, morning, get ready then off I go to Small mac, meet the rest, to go together to service! In Service, During praise, we sang first song "Friend of God" and that song really touch me a lot! When it beings as

Who am I that You are mindful of me? 
That you hear me 
When I call 
Is it true that You are thinking of me? 
How You love me 
It's amazing

The words itself to god that in my heart

"god! is it really true that you are thinking of me all along and there is no doubt god really cares for me"
And that encourages me a lot!

To know that why do
I have to worry when God is mindful of me? Then I have a time of thanksgiving and praise, followed
after by worship. Then I went off to set aside the offering and tithe. Then return to the auditorium after.
Had teaching of Overcoming Discouragement and Criticism. Something which really struck me a lot
is that, truly there is confirmation that whenever you serve god, do the right thing, make changes,
People will oppose you,

I though about me as a Prefect in my school, being a christian too.Well, an idea of Prefect is, wah,
got power! got authority, got badge!(duh!) or the other way round, in the students perspective,
A Dm's dog, A show off, A good boy..or a leader who makes impact.

I really think through, that the first time when they interviewed me, I actually wanted to be a prefect,
so that I can outreach, but I didn't even bring a single person to christ, and probably, my schoolmates
rarely sense my presence, as an impact. and i truly want to be a salt and light to my school.
In my heart I truly don't want the popularity and the badge,
but I want to bring the love of god to my schoolmates. Sometimes, I can't differentiate,
Is when my class mates pull me down, is it because,
he is just part of the challenge for me to grow, or is he really saying that
because I haven't been a good salt and light?
Whatever the case are, I know that I am just gonna do what is right, even if it means of getting mocked
or even getting sacked! but why not just Laugh it away! And continue to Do what is Right!
as the quote was versed In [ Nehemiah 4:6 ]
So what! Hahaha! quote "just rebuilt the wall..with all their heart"
Amen!

Then after service, went to do offering duty, then head to eat, chitchat and off to study! at where?
Center Point mac lohh.. again? YES, again. but the environment quite conducive to study!
Studied chemistry, for quite a while! about few hours i guess.. haha finally get over it! Qing met us
for awhile..then I took a walk around Center Point..To savor moments with God =)
then I head back, ended up slacking with the rest..and time flies, to 9 oclock..then ONIRIGI!
Haha, thank god I still got my portion to eat haha! I love onirigi man..Then go subway eat cookies..
COOKIES! wow..my tea break quite long hor haha..ended up slacking..all the way, Then head home
with my new bus mate Charles! ( Least I got studied Chemistry! ) Talk here and there till he drops
Then I spend some time alone in the bus with god, slacking again..haha..Reached home..

Then I realise my sis haven't buy guitar string yet! aiyah..wanted to play today one..but oh well!
I can worship God without my guitar anyway! Then before I blogged went off to check out on plurk.
and read on yesterday plurk..and just wanna thank god for choco-lover kar min! for encouraging
marcus to trust in god through his exams and to come for service.though and despite he didn't
I believe that helped to strengthened his faith! yeah!

I really just pray that though exams have started, I am able to manage my time well with the people
I am taking care now and as well for my studies..Not easy! but with God, All things are possible Amen?
Good nights!

9:19 AM