Paulus Spiritual Walk

Monday, March 1, 2010

Let us Focus our eyes on the unseen, Despite He give and take away, Wait Upon the Lord, Blessed be His Name

Hey, I am here to blog about yesterday, 28th February 2010. In the morning, I been waiting for so long, to play my FF8 & DotA. Simply because, I been fasting from games,anime & manga last week. So my hands was so itching to play..immediately after breakfast, I on the computer. at first I was installing some protection, an anti-virus on my computer since it was attacked few days back (so last night never get to play too sigh!) At first things went well, I downloaded Avast! and it was clearly things well. I was deleting the viruses..when it suddenly lagged.. So with the help of Ctrl-Alt-Delete, Task Manager, I end its process..and it gave me a 1min forced shut down..And to my surprised after it restarted..Something Terrifying happened..

My computer kept restarting OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER Endlessly again..so I tried many ways to use it and it kept on restarting OVER AND OVER again..So I went to my sis room and started groaning and scolding "Ce! Comp spoiled! It keep on restarting! Why!? I just want to play FF8 ='( !!!" Whats worst, there are many many photos..Many many games..many many files that are yet to be backed up..! My sister replied "hah? never mind lor wait lor" ( Actually she don't know whats happening, she don't know that the computer have yet to be on when it kept restarting so we cannot use nor save any of the files yet ) So for 1hour I kept going back and forth..running to my sister room to complain and going back to try again to fix..in vain..

After I got tired..I played my phone game when I accidentally press my NIV bible. Where God spoke to me through ^{2Corinthians 4:18
"18}So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen.
for what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."

And I was like ya, Probably I was hooked into FF8, I should remember that things are just temporary! So I had my lunch with my sister first to calm down, at the same time praying that a miracle will happen.

After lunch I tried again. and the same thing happen..and I myself also kept doing the same thing. until my sister was so frustrated " Ai yo! He give and take away! Blessed be God's Name!" So I was like so "ya whatever!" in my Sian-ness despite knowing that God is hinting me that I really been caring about FF8 too much. After that I relaxed down..

And I take a rest awhile..And I tried again with the same results..and the exact same thing "God! I just want to play FF8!!!" Oh I like FF8 so much is because I use to play it last time but CD spoiled before I get to complete it. Now I can play because I got Emulator from Aloy. So my sister replied " Ai yo! Read this verse!( Posted on the wall )

Psalm 27:14
"¹⁴ Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD."

And again I thought " How long must I wait God!!! To Play FF8!!! " I know it actually that God is actually hinting me again. But I am just too into to play FF8. I tried use System Recovery Which I thought ended up reformatting but with Saved files but Virus attack and the same thing repeated..

So after that, My Dad called asking us to go out join them at Bugis as he is there with my Mom to buy Laptop for my sis at Sim Lim Square. My sister said "ai yah later can bring all the photos and everything into my new laptop mah!" ( She is going University so she will need a Laptop ) But I thought that "seriously you are not understanding whats happening to the computer"

On the way, My sister said "Ai ya, He Give and Take Away lahh, Blessed be his name" so I thought that yeah..This is really God telling me something..I really should bless His name anyway! When we met Mom and Dad,Uncle came along.

To cut short, my uncle actually bought 2 Laptops & 2 back-up Thumbdrive for us! even though I don't need it and my files are still there in my old Desktop! I was super SHOCK! Me? Get Laptop plus ETC, well my sister needs it but me? I don't need it!

And Whats Even better! I am using My Desktop to blog NOW because its Fixed! and I got a Laptop behind me now..left nice and cool, ( its worth 1.5k..) I am Awestruck! not only because of my generosity. But because of how God blessed me this much..wow, if this is not God who else?!

So Let us Focus our eyes on the unseen, Despite He give and take away, Wait Upon the Lord! Blessed be His Name!

Agape, Paulus

3:22 AM