Paulus's Spiritual Walk

Let us Focus our eyes on the unseen, Despite He give and take away, Wait Upon the Lord, Blessed be His Name

2010-03-01T03:22:00.000-08:00

Hey, I am here to blog about yesterday, 28th February 2010. In the morning, I been waiting for so long, to play my FF8 & DotA. Simply because, I been fasting from games,anime & manga last week. So my hands was so itching to play..immediately after breakfast, I on the computer. at first I was installing some protection, an anti-virus on my computer since it was attacked few days back (so last night never get to play too sigh!) At first things went well, I downloaded Avast! and it was clearly things well. I was deleting the viruses..when it suddenly lagged.. So with the help of Ctrl-Alt-Delete, Task Manager, I end its process..and it gave me a 1min forced shut down..And to my surprised after it restarted..Something Terrifying happened..

My computer kept restarting OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER Endlessly again..so I tried many ways to use it and it kept on restarting OVER AND OVER again..So I went to my sis room and started groaning and scolding "Ce! Comp spoiled! It keep on restarting! Why!? I just want to play FF8 ='( !!!" Whats worst, there are many many photos..Many many games..many many files that are yet to be backed up..! My sister replied "hah? never mind lor wait lor" ( Actually she don't know whats happening, she don't know that the computer have yet to be on when it kept restarting so we cannot use nor save any of the files yet ) So for 1hour I kept going back and forth..running to my sister room to complain and going back to try again to fix..in vain..

After I got tired..I played my phone game when I accidentally press my NIV bible. Where God spoke to me through ^{2Corinthians 4:18
"18}So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen.
for what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."

And I was like ya, Probably I was hooked into FF8, I should remember that things are just temporary! So I had my lunch with my sister first to calm down, at the same time praying that a miracle will happen.

After lunch I tried again. and the same thing happen..and I myself also kept doing the same thing. until my sister was so frustrated " Ai yo! He give and take away! Blessed be God's Name!" So I was like so "ya whatever!" in my Sian-ness despite knowing that God is hinting me that I really been caring about FF8 too much. After that I relaxed down..

And I take a rest awhile..And I tried again with the same results..and the exact same thing "God! I just want to play FF8!!!" Oh I like FF8 so much is because I use to play it last time but CD spoiled before I get to complete it. Now I can play because I got Emulator from Aloy. So my sister replied " Ai yo! Read this verse!( Posted on the wall )

Psalm 27:14
"¹⁴ Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD."

And again I thought " How long must I wait God!!! To Play FF8!!! " I know it actually that God is actually hinting me again. But I am just too into to play FF8. I tried use System Recovery Which I thought ended up reformatting but with Saved files but Virus attack and the same thing repeated..

So after that, My Dad called asking us to go out join them at Bugis as he is there with my Mom to buy Laptop for my sis at Sim Lim Square. My sister said "ai yah later can bring all the photos and everything into my new laptop mah!" ( She is going University so she will need a Laptop ) But I thought that "seriously you are not understanding whats happening to the computer"

On the way, My sister said "Ai ya, He Give and Take Away lahh, Blessed be his name" so I thought that yeah..This is really God telling me something..I really should bless His name anyway! When we met Mom and Dad,Uncle came along.

To cut short, my uncle actually bought 2 Laptops & 2 back-up Thumbdrive for us! even though I don't need it and my files are still there in my old Desktop! I was super SHOCK! Me? Get Laptop plus ETC, well my sister needs it but me? I don't need it!

And Whats Even better! I am using My Desktop to blog NOW because its Fixed! and I got a Laptop behind me now..left nice and cool, ( its worth 1.5k..) I am Awestruck! not only because of my generosity. But because of how God blessed me this much..wow, if this is not God who else?!

So Let us Focus our eyes on the unseen, Despite He give and take away, Wait Upon the Lord! Blessed be His Name!

Agape, Paulus

Haggai 2

2010-02-22T23:02:00.000-08:00

Hey, its been a while since I last blogged. Very busy these days..People, ministry, studies..Things have been really stressful* tough. Whats more, I was Called to be a Leader, and today I am, despite I still feel awkward when I say I am. Leading a Life Group isn't easy. Sure it is. Especially when some are moving forward while some are still left behind. But, today I want to post on something which God spoke to me few days ago. I was just reading God's Word when God encouraged me through this chapter

(Not a need to read all, Can scroll down if you decide to)
Haggai 2

The Promised Glory of the New House

¹ On the twenty-first day of the seventh month, the word of the LORD came through the prophet Haggai: ² "Speak to Zerubbabel son of Shealtiel, governor of Judah, to Joshua son of Jehozadak, the high priest, and to the remnant of the people. Ask them, ³ 'Who of you is left who saw this house in its former glory? How does it look to you now? Does it not seem to you like nothing? ⁴ But now be strong, O Zerubbabel,' declares the LORD. 'Be strong, O Joshua son of Jehozadak, the high priest. Be strong, all you people of the land,' declares the LORD, 'and work. For I am with you,' declares the LORD Almighty. ⁵ 'This is what I covenanted with you when you came out of Egypt. And my Spirit remains among you. Do not fear.'

⁶ "This is what the LORD Almighty says: 'In a little while I will once more shake the heavens and the earth, the sea and the dry land. ⁷ I will shake all nations, and the desired of all nations will come, and I will fill this house with glory,' says the LORD Almighty. ⁸ 'The silver is mine and the gold is mine,' declares the LORD Almighty. ⁹ 'The glory of this present house will be greater than the glory of the former house,' says the LORD Almighty. 'And in this place I will grant peace,' declares the LORD Almighty."

Blessings for a Defiled People

¹⁰ On the twenty-fourth day of the ninth month, in the second year of Darius, the word of the LORD came to the prophet Haggai: ¹¹ "This is what the LORD Almighty says: 'Ask the priests what the law says: ¹² If a person carries consecrated meat in the fold of his garment, and that fold touches some bread or stew, some wine, oil or other food, does it become consecrated?' "
The priests answered, "No."

¹³ Then Haggai said, "If a person defiled by contact with a dead body touches one of these things, does it become defiled?"
"Yes," the priests replied, "it becomes defiled."

¹⁴ Then Haggai said, " 'So it is with this people and this nation in my sight,' declares the LORD. 'Whatever they do and whatever they offer there is defiled.

¹⁵ " 'Now give careful thought to this from this day on ^a]">[a] —consider how things were before one stone was laid on another in the LORD's temple. ¹⁶ When anyone came to a heap of twenty measures, there were only ten. When anyone went to a wine vat to draw fifty measures, there were only twenty. ¹⁷ I struck all the work of your hands with blight, mildew and hail, yet you did not turn to me,' declares the LORD. ¹⁸ 'From this day on, from this twenty-fourth day of the ninth month, give careful thought to the day when the foundation of the LORD's temple was laid. Give careful thought: ¹⁹ Is there yet any seed left in the barn? Until now, the vine and the fig tree, the pomegranate and the olive tree have not borne fruit.
" 'From this day on I will bless you.' "

Zerubbabel the LORD's Signet Ring

²⁰ The word of the LORD came to Haggai a second time on the twenty-fourth day of the month: ²¹ "Tell Zerubbabel governor of Judah that I will shake the heavens and the earth. ²² I will overturn royal thrones and shatter the power of the foreign kingdoms. I will overthrow chariots and their drivers; horses and their riders will fall, each by the sword of his brother.

²³ " 'On that day,' declares the LORD Almighty, 'I will take you, my servant Zerubbabel son of Shealtiel,' declares the LORD, 'and I will make you like my signet ring, for I have chosen you,' declares the LORD Almighty."

Basically, it talks about God calling the People to rebuild his house. As I was reading this I felt that, there is something which God wants to speak to me through and I was just praying through like "God what does it mean? what do you want to tell me?" I thought that I should not miss this chance for God to speak to me and as I read once more. I realized that this is truly God and not my thoughts. Every Verse means something to me and to my Group. & that God have really choose me to lead this people as described through the Word.

* "There are just too many things so probably what I have written may not make much sense to you" *

However today I just want to post this to Testify that this is what God have spoken to me,and I know it full well.

Anyway, This week, there is an special service, Love Tag and I am praying by faith! I myself will give my all and not be ill-disciplined as well to compromise. My group will grow!

^{In Verse:19} Is there yet any seed left in the barn? Until now, the vine and the fig tree, the pomegranate and the olive tree have not borne fruit.
" 'From this day on I will bless you.' "

With God 100% + Man 100% = Miracle

Agape,
Paulus Prana

Stand Firm

2009-12-30T06:13:00.000-08:00

Hey, Its been quite a while since I last blogged, Updates, Praise God! Maverick doing well! Connected to group slowly growing in God. And last week, I brought 1of my street evax contact friend down, and after a 30mins conversation he agreed to come down and he brought his friend along! despite he didn't convert for he is unsure of his decision and his friend is a visiting christian, Thank god he is quite connected to our group! and is coming for life group meet tomorrow!

"These Nights, Often, when everyone else is asleep, except I who have yet to fall asleep, Satan came to my presence to tempt, to make an exchange, to fall..Similar to buying business, A good offer, comes with a price. At times, I wanted to give in, yet again and again, the Spirit prompted me not to give in to the temptation, In my mind, I have to make a difficult decision, whether to accept his offer which has a very great consequence, or to resist the temptation and Just Say No. Thankfully, I Prayed, I told Satan that, No, I am sorry, I am not gonna be your customer. and thus I rebuked him with the Word of God. and Satan left. Thankfully, I made a right decision. and Peace filled my heart"

Probably tonight, and maybe tomorrow night and maybe every night,Satan might come again and again, to give me a bigger and bigger offer, which has a greater and greater consequence, but I know that I should not buy his Products, for its dangerous and it holds a great consequence that breaks God heart. But I really encourage you, myself, to stand firm, Satan..yeah, he is tough, smart and tricky, but we should know that God is greater, and He matters more than my momentary satisfaction. Stand Firm. Amen.

Agape,

Paulus

Word For Life & Devotions

2009-12-02T19:22:00.000-08:00

Hey, been a while since I last blogged, yesterday, Went for Word For Life, taught by Raphael & Sharlene, Teaching on Outreach and Discipleship. Though we have heard of it quite a few times, I really agree that, in our lives, what we do is basically these 2 things, to outreach to people, and disciple people. Understanding the significant of the how these 2 things can really transform lives.

After Word For Life, we went to eat, supposedly have Dmm after that, so we went Cafe Cartel, to meet up as usual at PS. Woah, and something memorable happened at Cafe Cartel! which is that while we are just eating bread, Qing told us that he lost his wallet and is at pasir ris. oh dear, at most it will take more than half-an hour traveling at least, well so we wanted to just leave after eating bread, ( Actually they charge for free! ) but it will be quite a scene to come Cafe Cartel and leave after eating bread for free. Aloy & Alfon wanted to just go but I agree with Yi Hao that it is kinda bad to just come a leave after eating bread for free. So never mind, the manager charged us $5 for eating bread..well..forget it..we gotta rush off anyway! ( Such an interesting event! so I must note it down here =P )

Then had meeting, after that quickly rush home, got nagged a bit though..After I bathe, went to use the comp, need to print some stuffs and prep teaching (which I just prepared now got nagged off to bed by my mom)..back to the point..Suddenly my old contact from bedok view started to share to me that he is actually listening to christian songs! and when we talked he started sharing me he is interested to come to church! Voa-la! Thank God! recently we have an old contact which was brought in by a west brother who is also from bedok view! woah! thank god! me and alfon's fruits of our labor is starting to bear! But while I was talking to him, the one who just nudge me in Msn, his name is maverick by the way! last time he joined us, and converted just to try a prayer, so he told me he doesn't want to commit and he only wanted fun as he got his CCA also, so now in my mind I was actually angry, I wanted to confront him, its like, Wah last time I asked for your commitment and you reject, ok fair enough, then you have fun for a awhile, ok fair enough then leave and go commit to your CCA, ok fair enough. now you say your interested and wanted to join our group again because you are bored during the holidays?!

Well, at first thought, I wanted to scream at him if he was just beside me, oh cmon, are you so Spiritual to think like Of course! bring him In! well maybe you are but that is how I Felt*. But I know that, it is the right thing to do to bring him back, so invited him for Life* Group tomorrow which is now, Today. At night, I was just doing my Qt,doing Devotions when God just speak to me at that moment. The devotions is actually talking about Jonah, at Chapter 4. about how Jonah was angry at God for being so gracious and loving that he seize his wrath from a people because they turned their ways and repent. Jonah was so angry at God's compassion that he just felt very displeased with God, so the Bible says in chapter 4: Read if you are willing to

¹ But Jonah was greatly displeased and became angry. ² He prayed to the LORD, "O LORD, is this not what I said when I was still at home? That is why I was so quick to flee to Tarshish. I knew that you are a gracious and compassionate God, slow to anger and abounding in love, a God who relents from sending calamity. ³ Now, O LORD, take away my life, for it is better for me to die than to live."

⁴ But the LORD replied, "Have you any right to be angry?"

⁵ Jonah went out and sat down at a place east of the city. There he made himself a shelter, sat in its shade and waited to see what would happen to the city. ⁶ Then the LORD God provided a vine and made it grow up over Jonah to give shade for his head to ease his discomfort, and Jonah was very happy about the vine. ⁷ But at dawn the next day God provided a worm, which chewed the vine so that it withered. ⁸ When the sun rose, God provided a scorching east wind, and the sun blazed on Jonah's head so that he grew faint. He wanted to die, and said, "It would be better for me to die than to live."

⁹ But God said to Jonah, "Do you have a right to be angry about the vine?"
"I do," he said. "I am angry enough to die."

¹⁰ But the LORD said, "You have been concerned about this vine, though you did not tend it or make it grow. It sprang up overnight and died overnight. ¹¹ But Nineveh has more than a hundred and twenty thousand people who cannot tell their right hand from their left, and many cattle as well. Should I not be concerned about that great city?"

So at that moment, God was speaking to me, For I am very angry at how Maverick reacted and now he is turning back to come back to join us again. And the Lord welcome him but I was really angry and unhappy about Maverick, just the same situation as how Jonah was angry about God having compassion for the people, so God is speaking to me,

" Do you have any right to be angry about Maverick? Maverick is my still my child who is lost just like you once were, and he cannot tell from what is right and wrong In My Eyes, How should I not be concerned about him?

And there I knew that, This is really God's heart beat for him. Now, I knew that, despite I am still angry with him, I need to Love him, because God Love him first. And I should look at him with the eyes of faith, looking at who he can be not who he is. Now I am Praying that, Maverick know will return back to God and walk in His ways again.

Alright, I will go off now! Good Bye

Agape,

Paulus

F,B,L, & Service

2009-11-28T08:37:00.000-08:00

Ahh! I 18days never blog le! haha need to ge this consistent! thank god for the previous few weeks, we had our 2 Day of games in last week and last last week lead by Daryl & Ian, go Jurong Water theme park and Sentosa! Sweetness! so much fun and family haha! then this whole week, I came Yi hao house at least 4times, for Mahjong, Guitar Class, QT! hahah! And yesterday we had our ED1 1-Day Camp! haha, ED1 Guys are!
Fun Biblical Leaders
Godly Mans who will take the Lead! AMEN!

So that was yesterday! alot of fun and games and everything haha, phoots and videos take from Ian..and mandon,daryl, star and I was the loser for the day! hahaha! so fun!

Today, woke up find Jian an, however after waiting for awhile, my wait was in vain! he is asleep! But I really hope that Jian an will commit to the Kingdom and run this race together! despite he haven't been doing so well..Now, so no choice, rush to service! thank god for that I reach on time least for the worship session
We sang Ricky Skaggs - We all bow down & Revelation Song.
Its really true that that no matter who you are,we all will be able to worship and seek him.

The Sermon was about "Crossing impossibilities with our Faith!" haha we listened to the story of Moses! What am I gonna apply? Just have Faith + Do Actions = Mountains move! How fancy is it for the Israelite to cross the Sea with 2 pillars of water! " Underwater World! Tsk!" HAHA! anyway, my point is, God is really COOL! to build SeaWorld in just a few seconds huh! pretty a style God isn't it? But really we should believe and have faith in God! If he can split the sea into 2 pillars, whats more can God do with our obstacles and problems! Amen?

After service did some Admin stuffs, find the rest, playing L4D 2!!! wow everything is much much cooler! however they too many people so if i play i will likely be playing alone.. so bo bian, dont play lo. then we walk around Orchard Road. looking for our ED1 Camp Shirt! thank god we found it and everyone's got it! pictures later..

Then slack at Shaw house Mac. and thank god for Yi hao who got many instant coupon! after eating and happily chatting, including talking about how good and bad our school food is there..
head home after that. and here I am! to Blog once again. I gotta off first. Nights!

Agape,
Paulus

Sentosa Fellowship

2009-11-11T08:29:00.000-08:00

Yeah! back again! Hopefully can be consistent so that this blog will not die! Anyways, I just want to thank god for the fellowship we had just now! the Sentosa trip! very fun too! and most of us turn black and red..Photo grab from Yi Hao in Facebook.

Haha, though we didn't do much of the time following through the games which are planned, least all of us enjoyed it amen? Despite quite a few mini arguements of sand splashing, we still made it back together and enjoy one another!

After swimming, we head back to Vivo to eat! enjoyed our dinner. and walk around vivo city. which we become stuck at Candy Empire, static-ing people =P. Static Empire -Samuel Lim. hahah! Then we do window shopping and continued walking! then head home.

However, for me, going home wasn't all good though cause, I made my mom worried by leaving my phone silent and she is unable to reach me. Well, I thought it may be nothing much, until I place myself into my shoe. what happens when you are unable to contact your love onces and remained alone at home for about 10hours without any news, well, returning home 11 and without accounting to my mom since 12 oclock. Well, I apologized and my mom forgave me. but when she noticed I have sunburn she took the cream and apply for me and I was just staring at her face.

Then I noticed that, we really should appreciate our parents too. its quite cliche but..really! sometimes God is like that, He scolds, he rebukes, he punish, but ultimately,why? because He love us! So I also want to thank god for my mom. =)

Then while plurking if you know what it is, something similar to tweeter( correct spelling I guess? ) I was just responding at my sheep's plurk since a few of his friends were like responding & spamming badly..So..

Legend in Plurk..:
The P = Prana
Ikanaide = Marcus

Quote:
The P says: oi oi becareful hor, he is mine!

The P says: lol sounds wrong

Ikanaide says: LOL !! im your sheep ... so it dosent sounds wrong

The P feels: *Touched!

At that moment, receiving that reply really touches me alot! thats is one of the sweetest thing a shepherd can receive! Well, you gotta be a shepherd to understand what I mean! Amen?
So I give thanks! and I gotta go! Nights =)

Agape,
Paulus

Movies & Dota

2009-11-03T08:10:00.000-08:00

Hey, Back again, I am just gonna make it short. today, went to school for remedial, However, I was LATE! ( cause when I woke up, I went to sleep again.) oh dear, but thank God only got a small nag by my teacher. then lessons goes on as per normal until school ends. head home, to slack. Intend to go Vylan house watch movie. but ended up its only decided at 4.30pm cause no reply etc..And there was only the 4 of us..Originally, I really wanted to just slack at home..plus at home I can play games! but oh well, thank god that He reminded me about yesterday, that probably it may be a waste of time, but what matters is when we step out of our comfort zone to do so! So we watched ( Qian Bu Gou Yong 2 Direct Translation - Money Not Enough To Use 2) which I watch before! oh well..Truly the movies and transport doesn't matter but its as simple as a small time to spend time with each other! after that went to eat, and head home.

Upon reaching home, good news! my class mate asked me to play Dota with him! and my other class mate too! but oh well, I thought this would be a good chance to get to know my friends more and to play also la! however, the game didn't turned out well though..lost the fight and whats worst, I feel a small bit of upset or probably unhappy I don't know but all I know it doesn't felt comfortable and happy.

I thought like why, well! firstly because, there is not much relationships between us, compared to playing with my care group, we lose, we rejoice on our defeat because its a good game, and if we win, we rejoice on our victory! and when I played just now. it felt like a cold ending. whether winning or losing.

Therefore, a game is just a game! in the end, all goes back into the box! all will return to usual when the game is quit! but what truly matters is, have we changed our perspective to look and work More* on what really last? yeah amen? I gotta go off first! Nights! :)

A New week of Holiday

2009-11-02T06:52:00.000-08:00

Hey, seems like I been getting lazy to blog..better be consistent soon..! Today, Go to school from 8 to 12, studied new chapters for next year. then head home to slack..for awhile before being pestered by Andrew asking me to join him in cycling..

Well, some thing which God reminded me, actually though I like to cycle, it was firstly, raining, I wanted to save up, no one else is coming other than the both of us, my old contact just wanted me to play DotA with him which I can kill 2 birds with one stone ( For I wanted to play & sow at the same time ) however, I thought that, if I am able to out of my comfort, accompany Andrew again* he will learn to do so to others as well!

Just to summarize quickly on that one, as I am typing out, what God reminded me was the previous Podcast teaching which I watched, which is about something about investing our time. by Pastor Wayne from New Hope Oahu

"One day, there is a father who had a son, and he is having a tough time for his work and other commitments. however, he thought that, He should once accompany his son to go fishing together despite he doesn't want to do so in the first place but the son really enjoy fishing a lot still he decide to do so. On that day,after they had went fishing together, that night father who had a personal journal was writing down on how his day, and a son who also had a personal journal was doing the same. however, they were on separate rooms. What was written in his Father's Journal was " Fishing with my son today; a waste of time" but what was written on his Son's Journal was " Fishing with my dad today, the best day of my life"

When God reminded me about this that in the same way, despite all the trouble, all the effort, the blood and sweat, the wrestling we gone through with God, Its all worth it. when you see that, the people around you having their lives being touched and changed. its truly worth it. =)

Even if it as simple as, riding bicycle with my sheep-mate. Hahaha!
by the way he said he is gonna pay be half price for the bike! ( Before that he was pestering me AND Pleasing me just to accompany him to cycle) after that he abandoned me to return the bike myself! =(

However, I am assured that, he will really see the significant that spending out of the comfort zone is where it begins. even if it as simple as stepping out of a comfort zone to accompany some one even if You DON"T WANT it. =)

So after cycling, rush to Mac to have dinner with the Godly Younger* Man! including Led by Qing. Yeah man! our Younger Man of God is gonna shine Amen? for the Godly Young* Man to Rot and for the Godly Younger* Man to Shine! =P just kidding! haha! Our Group will grow!
Amen! =). Nights!

The Returning

2009-10-25T01:54:00.000-07:00

Yeah! I am back in Singapore! Wow, the whole trip is really fun! at the same time, its like my dream land, and when I am back in Singapore, This is reality. Anyways, there are few things I wanna take down these few days,

Start out by Wednesday, something amazing happen! I checked a lot of scripts, and the good news, I passed all! except for chemistry ( but science can make it since covered by physics which do quite well! and mother tongue not sure yet..OH the most important of all, Maths in my class has 3 passes ONLY! at first I was really losing faith since only 3 pass are like my class mates who are more Zai at maths turn out that, I PASSED 40/80 on the spot! you know how? I also don't know! HAHA! well, firstly few weeks ago when I did my test, I didn't complete one question in section B which holds 14 marks which means I am only left with 66 marks left..plus careless mistakes, 60% i will likely to fail..well basically, its impossible for me to pass, and God did it! Wow, throughout the whole lesson I was like, stunned and amazed that, this is truly not by me, not by my brains nor hands, but by God who performed this miracle in this lesson!

After school, I rushed home get changed then go airport! finally! then after that went of straight to my my aunt and my uncle wedding anniversary! enjoyed good food and meet old relatives haha..then the whole thing continues till I reached home and the next day begins.

Normal stuffs and went out to do some shopping before my grandma's big birthday celebration.
another thing that God really blessed me was, me & my sis was chosen by my dad is sing for my grandma's celebration and guess what? it will begin in hours, and we haven't even decided on the song..wow..trouble huh?so my sis and I agreed, we just do what we can and quickly chiong to prep and ended up when it started we haven't even prep properly..so since there was a keyboardist so bo bian..just pick one song and sing together with my sis, and my cousin came along to help. picked "you raise me up" pretty common song I believe? What happen was, me my sis and my cousin just sang what we can and ended up, It was a SUCCESS! HOW??? I also don't know again. HAHA!

Many said that we can sing but to my sis I won't be surprised la but when many relatives say I can sing I was literally WOWED! Me can sing? what? that never happen before! but this is truly God, because just now,my sis and we prayed for it before and we did what we can, and God helped us with what we can to make it a success! probably the holy spirit change my voice haha!
But through this I really thank god for it! and the whole thing was an enjoyable fellowship with the whole family and I also want to thank god for my grandma!

Summarizing the few days something which I learn.

The following few days, go shopping, new clothes, brought home old clothes also, ate indo food ( Yummy!) I go out so often that I have sooo..little time to practice drum..probably only few hours..T_T but thank god cause when I played I got my coordinating right! played lesser games, I was actually just savoring the moment of being in Indo. its just very enjoyable. even if its as simple as going mall with my family.

Few days ago, I was just reading Wild At Heart, I was remembering the means of being Dangerous and Adventurous, truly Christian men are BORED! the real adventure comes not when we go to real war, but when we choose to begin by stepping out of comfort zone situations for God!

Yesterday afternoon, another cousin came to visit us and I just realised that, I become an uncle le! I got a nephew wow! haha, so we are just like looking at the baby and stuff then it started crying as usual...that is what babies do right? suddenly my cousin just said " oh he is tired and wants to sleep " so my cousin carried him and just sway and tap him and he really kept quiet and go to sleep! at first I was a bit surprised! how do you know if a baby's cry? do my cousin speak baby language? nope! no one knows a baby better than their parents! interesting isn't it!

Then on the night time, I watched a recording of a conference of a pastor in Australia which my brother went to. He was just so called performing like the scene of Job. other than finding the whole performance interesting, what taught me was the heart of integrity that Job has. [ Job 1:6-22 ] read it and truly this should be the heart that we have.

I really enjoyed the whole trip, It really have drawn me closer to god. Well, I knew that when I return, things gonna get started! and I need to start serving, but I the most important thing is, again, being dangerous and adventurous does not require war, but stepping out of the comfort zone should be where we go! My studies getting heavier, more people to take care, admin things to work on. outreaching, and more and more these are endless! but truly! I have God with me!
What else do I need? Amen!?

You Are Everything

2009-10-15T08:59:00.000-07:00

Yeah! Exams Are OVER!!! Hohoho!!! I am free!!! my exams ended today!!! So after papers, head home. Used computer for awhile then, my mom offered if I want to join her and my bro to go out. so alright better than slacking at home! so I went out with them to Vivo city..then accompany my brother do some shopping while my mom head somewhere else around vivo to buy her own stuffs..

After a hard time running from shops to shops and back to shops again, finally bought new clothes, muahaha! but I gotta pay for my own though +_+. so no more spending unnesscessarily gotta spend wisely! Then walk up and down around..again..and finally reach the MRT..so my mom head home while me and my bro go find my sis to go Far East for some more shopping..

Then after the short trip, reached far east and meet my sis to hang around, Up and Down again..still found some stuffs my brother needed, then we were walking up the top floor of the building when we noticed that the top floor is all the places for people to eat like small food court like that..so my bro wanted to go down and look around somewhere else, when suddenly I just felt the prompting to continue exploring the whole floor..and so we agreed and continue to look around..when we stumbled upon a Christian Bookstore. So we entered and have a look around..
then suddenly, the music which the store is playing, catches my attention.

Its You Are Everything - By Matthew West, Enjoy!

This song really encourages me a lot that God is really EVERYTHING, What I wanted, What I needed, What I live for..words just fail to express, but God is truly EVERYTHING and everyday my life is really filled with hope every moment I know he is there with me. Hope you are encouraged too! By the way this is the first time I hear this song! so as I think through just now that incident, I know that, Its not a coincidence in that prompting to continue exploring the whole floor of Far East but its an encouragement that God wants to give me.

So after that I head off down to continue my shopping with my bro! head around Wisma, Back and forth to Taka, here and there till finally shop a few more and head home, and back here I am! Thank God For God! =) Amen! I gotta go first! Nights!

Birthday Affirmation Card & STUDY!

2009-10-12T06:07:00.000-07:00

Hello! I am back, haven't post for one week! haha, cause exams are here. Therefore I need to study hard these several days. Firstly I just want to thank god for my Unit-EastD
For giving such a nice birthday card!

Though some are just writting card while some really made a lot of effort drawing or some prepared the whole card print but Its every single word & printings,slashes & sketches..etc which makes this card a master piece and complete!
Really Thank God for them =)

So for yesterday, while my dad, mom, bro & sis happily hang out..walk around etc.. Me gotta be alone at home studying T_T..
Well Exams, duh.. I was really troubled for I am gonna have both Maths & POA Paper 2 on one day.. so then studying at home is such a bore..So i studied with Hao, Sam & Darren at west mac!
Glad to have them there for I needed much help!
After studying few Hours..Darren went off first..And not long later Paul came to join us too!
Then after studying for few more hours..me and sam left first and go home.
I really thank god for him cause he was quite the one encouraging me for I am really troubled cause I need to go home have my dinner and I still have 6 chapters and POA to revise..
So when I reached home, have my dinner and studied..For long hours till everyone is asleep! haha, I didn't expect that to happen too! but Thank God I manage to finished Maths by 2.00
too tired to revise POA. so I just went off to sleep!

so Today! Wah guess what! Good News! Maths was easy! majority of the questions I studied came out! haha! woah is amazing man! but sadly, section B last question I left it untouched +_+ cause I was too focused on the hard questions and left that 12Marks gone! Oh God!
Then POA Paper 2, got some trouble with it cause never study! aiyah! well I did what I can!
so head home, took a Nap, then went off to airport and study with andrew and darren..ended up waste quite a while playing around..ahh! but when things settle down I manage to finish confidently revised Physics..
Now I gotta go first! still need to revise Chemistry and Social Studies..
Nights! =)

Happy Birthday Prana

2009-10-05T23:39:00.000-07:00

5th October

Yeah! actually I wanted to post yesterday, but its too late so never mind..just want to first thank god for all the people who gave me some wishes! =D Morning, go school, first things first, my hair got caught..+_+ not really pleasant start for your birthday isn't it? well! but since its my birthday, its for me to decide on how I want it to be! its all about a perspective! because Everyday is the day that the Lord has made! =D

So have normal lessons, then off to the barber shop..got hair cut, go back school..for remedial but surprisingly..ITS Canceled! HAHA! so went home, and take a nap..sleep till 6plus..wake up then went out for dinner! pretty simple wasn't it? so went to Astons for good dinner at Cathay, together with my mom,bro & sis. Enjoyed our time haha! then go eat Tauhuay. then go home. celebrated by my family, received money wrapped in red packets from relatives, New earpiece! ( thank god for them for buying cause I always needed a new one! ) =D and a new wallet! haha! I really thank god for these presents from them! =)

Next received a small surprise! from the Dmm's. who were actually hiding near the BBQ pit, haha, didn't expected it though! it was meant to be a surprise! haha, thank god for them too! its quite late but they still make time just for that short celebration is good enough! then prayed for my 3 wishes, first is to do well for my exams! to really glorify god with my results! second, is for my meh-meh..to really grow in God! third and last one, is a secret wish I had with God! and for god to make a way for that wish to know that it will come to pass!

Then after prayer, have cakes smashed into my face..as usual..however not so bad when it actually happen the second time when I am eating it..haha then begin wiping my handful of messy chocolate cake on Qing's face & Fon which only do abit..Next time I will get him!

Then send them home! and eat cake with my family..Haha..despite its a pretty simple celebration, Really thank God for this day that he have given to me! Amen! =)

Just laugh it away & do what is right.

2009-10-03T09:19:00.000-07:00

Yeah! back again! Today, morning, get ready then off I go to Small mac, meet the rest, to go together to service! In Service, During praise, we sang first song "Friend of God" and that song really touch me a lot! When it beings as

Who am I that You are mindful of me? 
That you hear me 
When I call 
Is it true that You are thinking of me? 
How You love me 
It's amazing

The words itself to god that in my heart

"god! is it really true that you are thinking of me all along and there is no doubt god really cares for me"
And that encourages me a lot!

To know that why do
I have to worry when God is mindful of me? Then I have a time of thanksgiving and praise, followed
after by worship. Then I went off to set aside the offering and tithe. Then return to the auditorium after.
Had teaching of Overcoming Discouragement and Criticism. Something which really struck me a lot
is that, truly there is confirmation that whenever you serve god, do the right thing, make changes,
People will oppose you,

I though about me as a Prefect in my school, being a christian too.Well, an idea of Prefect is, wah,
got power! got authority, got badge!(duh!) or the other way round, in the students perspective,
A Dm's dog, A show off, A good boy..or a leader who makes impact.

I really think through, that the first time when they interviewed me, I actually wanted to be a prefect,
so that I can outreach, but I didn't even bring a single person to christ, and probably, my schoolmates
rarely sense my presence, as an impact. and i truly want to be a salt and light to my school.
In my heart I truly don't want the popularity and the badge,
but I want to bring the love of god to my schoolmates. Sometimes, I can't differentiate,
Is when my class mates pull me down, is it because,
he is just part of the challenge for me to grow, or is he really saying that
because I haven't been a good salt and light?
Whatever the case are, I know that I am just gonna do what is right, even if it means of getting mocked
or even getting sacked! but why not just Laugh it away! And continue to Do what is Right!
as the quote was versed In [ Nehemiah 4:6 ]
So what! Hahaha! quote "just rebuilt the wall..with all their heart"
Amen!

Then after service, went to do offering duty, then head to eat, chitchat and off to study! at where?
Center Point mac lohh.. again? YES, again. but the environment quite conducive to study!
Studied chemistry, for quite a while! about few hours i guess.. haha finally get over it! Qing met us
for awhile..then I took a walk around Center Point..To savor moments with God =)
then I head back, ended up slacking with the rest..and time flies, to 9 oclock..then ONIRIGI!
Haha, thank god I still got my portion to eat haha! I love onirigi man..Then go subway eat cookies..
COOKIES! wow..my tea break quite long hor haha..ended up slacking..all the way, Then head home
with my new bus mate Charles! ( Least I got studied Chemistry! ) Talk here and there till he drops
Then I spend some time alone in the bus with god, slacking again..haha..Reached home..

Then I realise my sis haven't buy guitar string yet! aiyah..wanted to play today one..but oh well!
I can worship God without my guitar anyway! Then before I blogged went off to check out on plurk.
and read on yesterday plurk..and just wanna thank god for choco-lover kar min! for encouraging
marcus to trust in god through his exams and to come for service.though and despite he didn't
I believe that helped to strengthened his faith! yeah!

I really just pray that though exams have started, I am able to manage my time well with the people
I am taking care now and as well for my studies..Not easy! but with God, All things are possible Amen?
Good nights!

Look to The Lord

2009-09-29T07:42:00.000-07:00

Hey, its been awhile since I last blogged! well, recently I actually been very tired. not just physically. but spiritually as well. Let me complain a while, In my perspective..firstly, I got 4 People to meet, one of them birthday to plan.( Happy birthday JK! ) then now because of recent seizure my mom been forcing me to sleep early, then one my my sheep keep forcing me to send him nearer his home whenever he meets me..my guitar string came out..Want to worship also can't forced to sleep early, Exams are coming, home work piling up, need to faithfully plan my time..

Actually, I was simply complainning to God and my leader, why are things like this like that..To be true, If we look to God, things become smaller, I just need to plan my time, then from then on slowly meet my sheeps, rest early is possible since i plan my time right? Guitar strings came out..can always buy new ones this weekend right? want to worship? can also do so W/O guitar right? Exams are coming, Can always study right? Plus Thank God! I got CG tomorrow yet, I am not told to Lead any CG roles this week! Its like a Break! Not to say I am lazy to lead CG roles la..also JK birthday surprise and card everything was yesterday and its over quickly! as long as I give my best to it! which I did.

And this really encouraged me a lot that I still got God with me! Growing higher does not mean lots of things to do but look to God lesser..but all the more, I must always remind myself that, I should look to him, for he is My Savior And My God!

[ Psalms 42:11 ]
Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in the Lord, For i will yet praise Him, My Savior and my God.

Yeah! Thank God! I also had problems while doing my homework minutes ago..well, things don't always go my way don't they..even doing homework can be a suffering! however, A christian life is "An Ordinary Life Living With An Extraordinary God For An Extraordinary Purpose! "

Well better off soon! if not my mum's gonna nag me off to bed! Nights =)

Appointment, comfirmation & issue

2009-09-23T06:09:00.000-07:00

Let me blog about yesterday( Tuesday first ) so, Tuesday, morning went to school..haha..Thank god! now so far I can come slightly later for duty since my DM never scold me for coming right on time when I am suppose to report EARLY* well never mind..so lesson..study etc....then when school ended rushed home..bathe eat..then off I go Bugis again..for doctor appointment at KKH..

Waited for my turn, then see the doctor, make some communications about my health ( duh ). well, now that I am growing, my hormones getting active, therefore having one or two seizures a year is normal. especially when I got it genetically. so in the end. hoping to get better, but gotta increase medicine dosage. taking medicine everyday is not very nice..after that, buy more medicine from the pharmacy, then head home.

When home I, find some songs for gonna practice worship with hao. so took my guitar and off I go. then practice le!, thank god cause we got some difficulty looking for the songs etc..haha! then practice le finished and its already..9..well, when my dad is in singapore..its bad news only if i have not had my dinner yet..which yeah, I haven't eat!

But thank god! He prepared the bus, my dad to not scold me..and as well for my mom to wait for me despite she need clear the dishes etc.. yay! praise God haha. reached home le. then have my dinner!

So its time for comfirmation. And things doesn't go as it seems, about 2-3 roles is not comfirmed and I need to take the burden instead, my sheeps are unable to make it and one of them even said CG is boring! plus my dad is angrily scolding me off to bed, because of my illness, thus I need to sleep early. it was really very tiring. its actually doesn't sounds bad since its over..but I was really exhausted having to choose, which is more important,

Compromise my sleep and hurting the temple of God or the Caregroup to flow well and may have their lives changed during care group? difficult decision to decide huh? I want to compromise my sleep for the group but, my parents were worried insisting and scolding that I should get enough sleep! ( Thank god for their love and care =) )

So I turned to Him, and God reminded me that he will only place me on difficult challenges, situations and circumstances only those that I am able to go overcome it by relying on him for strength! and in that time, things looked pretty small. and things becomes easier to do, all I need is to go to bed remain awake first, Pass the role to those who are able..( thank god for them! ) call my sheep if possible. and thats all! And I can still can compromise my sleep just a little bit and just trust God for he will provide the protection and my requried sleep..! =)

So I really want to encourage you all even myself again. that God will not put us in difficult challenges, situations and circumstances if we can't overcome it. he will only put us in those areas only because he wants us to look to him for strength rather than relying on our own hands to get things done!

Now for my sheep, I will just keep them in prayer! and hope that they will see the value of coming to CG! and also grow in their Relationship with God! Amen =)

Ok thats was yesterday, anyway, so to just Chop Chop on what I did today, study in school duh..then when school ended, rushed down to yi hao house, prepare for CG. Thank god I manage to back up most of the roles and thank god for all the people leading the roles! yay! and caregroup begins and ends. Can't share much on this!

After that head home, Phew, for my dad is going overseas tonight, cause he is flying around the world for meetings just to get money to fill my wallet.. ( But I need to thank god for him! ) so i need to go home for dinner..and I can't join mandon's bdae celebration..aww..so oh well! Now, I am blogging again! gonna go sleep soon! shucks, forgot that I still got homework to do..ahh! alrights gotta go! Nights! =)

Hari Raya Puasa = Another One Holiday

2009-09-21T07:55:00.000-07:00

Yeah, Back again! Just to summarize on yesterday, Yesterday morning, Watched anime! haha..then continue all the way..do my own stuffs, play games, then went out for dinner. Went to Bugis..Eat pasta-mania! wah, god bless man! Enjoy good food! then we walked around here and there around bugis junction and head home!

So today, Morning, have breakfast then prepare to go Vylan house, teach him some guitar basics since he wanted to learn. Haha, vylan groaning again as usual, exaggeratedly screaming here and there on the pain for a while then laughing away in the end..kids these days! =P just kidding.. though to be true yes you gotta withstand the pain on your fingers when you wanna learn guitar..wait till it hardened first. but you the result will be great when you actually worship God! Playing guitar on your own rather than playing MP3/4 or IPod or etc to worship God! I really thank god I learn it! Other than learning drums later on.

Then I head to Tampines went popular bought sermon notebook for my baby sheep( Thank God for vylan who brought his membership card to cut the price by 10%! )..then go yamaha buy picks, since vylan wanted it. then head to KFC (yummy! Getting hungry?) eat my special set of zinger change to fries + cheese at the price of $5.50 Filling somewhat Cheap and Shiok!

Then went romantic mac study again..after studying accompany vylan walk around Tampines inter again..Then head in between the office building around there for vylan to practice guitar again. Then after a while sent him off to the bus stop then I head to star house. he is having a fever. Pray he will get well soon in Jesus Name! Amen! Then rushed home since its getting late,

You know what? after waiting in less than 3-5mins the bus came! and it take me only about 8mins to reach home from Tamp! quite a number of bus stops are empty so the driver just drove pass like that. and I gotta reach home on time and my mom wasn't scolding me and she is fine! ironing the clothes now..haha and even allowed me to blog before I sleep! Haha! Thank God for God and for her too! =)

Well, I gotta go! getting late now! =) nights!

Service - Being God's Instrument.

2009-09-20T00:49:00.000-07:00

Yo! Blogging about yesterday, for last night came back late so I gotta sleep earlier.

Early Morning, woke up late..actually not really..but since it rained so I decided to meet the rest at the platform instead..but because my phone card no money and I did not know it until I was about to leave the house which I was suppose to inform them earlier, I was marked late and suppose to do forfeit leh! by the way, that was because we set a goal to grow in Self-Control, Punctuality & Sensitiveness to People. But its so bad loh! mine isn't an excuse! its a reason..! oh well, anyway, they booked me for forfeit anyway, Least we are still early for prayer meet! Then have P&W And thank God for it is always a Joy to do so! amen?

Then, during sermon, Was continueing a story on [Nehemiah 3:1-32 ] The Work Of The Community. The whole chapter is mostly all about names..Complicated names..probably harder to recite than mine..=P..What really encourages me in the sermon is that, no matter how ordinary or how useless I am, In the Kingdom of God, I have a purpose to do. which is to be an instrument for God!

And are we gonna be the one that will heal the world? and really I agree to the sermon for Quitting school and leave overseas to plant church may not be a MUST. but we can start small by really being the salt and light to people around us. So "Do People See God Through Us?"
And I was really comforted with this verse which is [ 1 Corinthians 15:58 ] Truly, My Labour is Not In Vain. Amen.

So, then after that, Did Offering Duty with only 2 People! and it took 45mins to finished it..Gosh..Then joined the rest at Le..( We seriously need to move out from Le! ) Gotta think of a new place next time! Then played Lan with the trios together with aloy. while the rest went off to walk walk.. or go centerpoint mac( again ) to study..Played DotA..Then joined the rest to slack..After that Qing met us..well, I can't really share the entire meeting can I? Then slack again, bought McChicken..Eat..Coup Food from people..buy drink..

Then head to Parklane with Vylan since I want to buy Capo..Haha, Guess what? I got it for $22.50! original price $25 yamaha probably $30..Thank God! well..it isn't much but its a bargain haha! But just now I said if got bargain I go Lan with vylan, If no bargain go home.. so since got it then play with him loh..! So we played L4D, And at the last part, we got abandonned by the other 2..and me and vylan got attacked and got killed. Well Game over anyway!

Then head home. On my way, some funny thing happened..which is Jun kiat messaged me saying he loved me so sweet right! But just to get a present and in the end he said I was just a replacement..bahahaha! anyway then told Vylan to send a prank message of JK ordering 100 flowers haha for his beloved! hahaha..so funny! then sent vylan home to pasir ris..And thank god I got into the Last Train home! yay! praise god! haha, then bathe, and got a very personal and sweet night with God! but this 2 are between me and God so no one else will know deep about it!
So now gotta go! Nights!

Oral Ended With Breaks

2009-09-18T09:56:00.000-07:00

Hey, Back again! Wah,previously I felt that this week was very long. but now feel as though its fast! Anyway, Oral have ended! haha! even though its not as serious as End of year exams..I was really like "oh no oh no" for quite a while due to this 2 Oral Subjects these 2 days. Anyway, Its over! haha! thank god! =D

Plus good news, My msn is finally updated to the Windows Live Messenger Latest! haha! after long hours yesterday and just now..it finally worked! and my internet connection speed is back to normal + got protection too with AVG! Praise God! no more computer problems!

Alright, as I was saying, back after oral ended, head home, to sleep! I require a little more rest due to the symptoms of Late-Night-Sleeping. after that, woke up to solve the problem of Error in messengers download..they keep telling me I am not connected despite I am already connected to the internet. But the solution was to delete 2 exclusive folders and restart the comp to download! Fancy me going through all the trouble to do system restore plus research last night +_+.

Then met Aloy for dinner at simpang. actually wanted to eat at the quite nice Mee pok stall, aiyah sadly its close, so we decided to eat at other stall but it wasn't so bad..:) Then head home, while aloy accompany me for a while for a chit-chat & fellowship. Played some games, then he went home.

So, I decided to watch anime! watched for awhile and here I am to blog again! =) I gotta go first! Nights!

Faith and Words, To do Oral

2009-09-17T09:43:00.000-07:00

Back! Sorry, Blogged late I gotta go soon so I need to make it short and sweet! Today, Thank God I am still on time for morning duty! Haha, Then next thing I knew, Ambushed by Poa Sudden Test.Some remembered, well, I forgot for my teacher simply said "may have test next week" when we have remedial last week, so how? bo bian..sigh just revise a bit and off I go! though its difficult by faith and as little knowledge as I have just now, I can pass! =P But of course I won't do that in future again..

Had normal lessons, till school ends, despite knowing the format and everything...I still have no confidence in it..especially when entering the hall for the oral, I begin feeling the chills. well! When it was my turn, just do it! nothing else I can do than to move forward and take the seat of silent reading for 10mins.

The reading aloud wasn't much of a problem, but the picture description was..It was a picture of our school students going to the old folk's home. as the clock ticks, I am like thinking "Oh god, what can I say!" +_+ my mind was like empty and out of ideas..well, unfinished thinking, yet since it was my turn, I gotta move forward towards the examiner..Off I go!

After the oral, I don't know how well I am gonna do for it, but I knew that probably my oral is gonna be screwed this time, nevermind though, Since I said what I can! there is nothing else I can do! then I head home.

Bathe, Eat some tidbits, then Sleep! haha..typical..well my mom insisted me to sleep since these few nights been sleeping very late..like now..which is bad for me..But Thank God man, because Sleeping is a Blessing! Then had dinner, and do my homework..while at the same time, figuring out how I can solve the problem for my MSN..well getting late! I go off first! I want to do my QT. Nights! =)

Wednesday - CG

2009-09-16T06:34:00.000-07:00

Yeah! back again! today been quite a day. Went to school as usual, and then finally take my maths test. Thank God! I actually did all quite confidently! hopefully can pass! cause recently been failing them..then have normal classes..recess, back to normal class till school ended.

Then quickly made a rush down to Yi Hao House for CG, glad I am early! haha..then wait for people to gather..Then Ian comes with 2 of his friends one of them joined us before while the other is a christian from other church. the one who joined us before so called have quite a number of nickname..that time when he came together with his friends for service they all called each other "mandon"..well, as if people will believe them that time. however Yi Hao Believed them! not surprised I guess? haha =P just kidding..

Then when CG begins, opening do some intro and some tidbits eating, then comes Games! haha where me and Ian discussed yesterday..we played and though of this new game called the Deadly Musical Ball! haha sorry it will be too long to explain here! starting very very messy even though it was meant to be messy but a little too much..yeah finally when the game ended we found our Forfietee* haha which is Glen & Ian's friend which is called "mandon" but his real name is Eugene. (their names are just for introduction :) ) so basically they gotta drink this special drink we made for them! haha which is some juice thingy then add soya sauce, then pepper..haha but still since I am quite interested, i decide to help them drink too! though its actually taste very yucky..but not very bad, its just yucky..haha and I bring Ian together to drink their leftover forfiet =P

Finally we came upon worship. where thank god! we can again as a CG worship god together =). after that was Holy Comm, Alfon did something interesting too! which is for us to imagine then he do the narating and the story sharing! and it was understandable of our significant purpose of taking the bread and red drink.

Then got to sermon D lead by Aloy, haha it was good for it helps all of us to think through of what is the truly ideal CG we want to have and what few areas we can grow in together. these small areas are -Self Control, Sensitive to other's needs and Punctuality yeah, and this reminds all of us too as Man of ED1!

Then ended with announcement..since the CG has ended, most of them are just laying around while some play Guitar, Play the Wii. and the rest of us, play Paper Ball War! The Players were -Prana, -Winstar, -Daniel, -Darren, -Samuel, -Song, hahaha~! we had so much fun and yi hao room have become like havoc! then we started shooting at people who walk past here and there.
Truly enjoyed it a lot! Really Thank God for Care Group*!

Then off I go home! Have my dinner while watching MJ on TV, Then here I am! to blog again! But whoops, I gotta go first! need to do my home work! Plus tomorrow got English Oral, even if I know what to talk or how to answer, I am still lacking courage and confidence! ahh! Hope by Faith and Speech* I can do well! both English and Chinese which is tomorrow! and also my MSN to be healed! I got some Internet Connection Error for MSN but I can still online internet..Strange huh? Anyway, Nights!

Tuesdays with Books And People

2009-09-15T08:51:00.001-07:00

Yeah! back again..I try make it short since I need revise again..tomorrow got maths Test again..sigh..Yeah Thank God! I manage to learn of the format for both mother tongue and English oral..Just hopefully God will give me wisdom and words to answer the examiner! haha.. =) Then When school ended, My Project Work Program is over! so I need not stay back on Tuesdays again haha..

Thank God! Then rushed to meet Jun Kiat. Actually I was suppose to meet him at around 3 plus but since my project work thingy end at 3.15 plus then need wait on the way so counting from the time JK reached small mac, till the time we met, he is probably there for like 1hour! But the truth is, He didn't just wait! He actually went to the Lan Shop to play garena +_+. Fancy me thinking he actually replied all my messages of OK OK saying he will wait for me. Well! thats good enough though! haha. went to Long John then have our late lunch..after that go accompany him take his stuff for his mom and send him off. Glad despite I didn't give him some teaching, I got to know him more! and the rest which we talked are only between me and him so cannot reveal all! Yay haha! Finally met him man..

After that I went off to West Mac to study for awhile and saw Star & Aloy who are together there preparing some stuffs. So they gotta go off not long after then gotta study alone ='( Thank God Mr Yeee-Haooo accompany me haha! Helped me too! and share his drinks while I am thirsty at that time and needed it! haha, God really send a brother to bless me haha!

Then met Ian to plan CG games. Yeah He first time leading le! Clap clap*! haha..Thank God for him too for making his time to meet me just to prepare roles even after his tough trainning of CCA. And off I go home! Enjoy watching some of my favourite TV shows! -> The Mentallist ( I love it man!) And to Be here to blog again..Off to study! Cause I got maths test tomorrow!

And One last thing! Actually I was feeling very tired but God Never Fails To Comfort Me! =) Through this Song Unchanging By Christ Tomlin

Despite the video isn't much and a bit off. but its truly the song that comforts me! So! To add some live,

Enjoy! I gotta study too..God Bless ya,Nights man..! =)

Back To School!

2009-09-14T07:52:00.000-07:00

Back to school again! First things first, Morning wake up so early! aiyah tired man..Thank god I am not late for prefect duty and did not get scolded by Miss RA. So, finish duty already then head to English Class..which to be reminded that I got Oral this Thursday..got too many things to get worried about..well glad my English teacher didn't did a so called presentation on me today, most probably tomorrow..

Then moved on to PE, where I only played volley ball anyhow since my team mates also don't care..sigh,So my classmates all anyhow then receive abit of lecture..and off to recess! Then late for Chemistry class because need change!( first few times though!) well so manage to get chance to enter..after that..suffering to understand chemical properties..bla bla bla..and well it ended soon later! Then next Chinese Class, wah to my horror..I was also reminded got Chinese Oral think..is this friday..aiyah..die ah die ah..so manage to survive..then History! thank god! my favourite subject :) but sadly copy notes all the way! and finally, school ended!

Wonder how am I gonna survive through..man..reached home, finally time to sleep! though I overslept when I was suppose to meet the rest to prepare CG..Thank God again, my savior prepared the Bus as I reached the bus stop haha! yeah! Jesus rawks! then reach Romantic* Mac..and got started. Then just realised few of the Spring Field was there..probably studying, actually when they left they left their worksheet too! which was thrown away..ANYWAY! Prepared CG roles, see who to sabo! HAHA! just kidding..Its always a Pleasure to serve God in CG roles amen? =) And of course Yi Hao gets bullied, Prana should know what I mean..

After that yeah, Finally Getting Studying..Then comes the spring fielder again to go studying..As my Mathematician went off eating for dinner with Star, Hao turned his back on me for his p-p-pf-pff-pfff Speech. MUAHAHAHAHA so funny! Prana,Hao & Aloy should also get what I meant!

Meet Vylan as he come to wait for me to swim at my house. First time le! Shepherding was always either we go somewhere else or I go his house! Shepherding never happen at my House before! however there is always the first time! Then went swimming, vylan starts showing me what he got! but when I go Wild ( not Crazy or Mad ) as I use to when I go swim,( trainned since childhood le! ) He began to ask "how do ya do that and that!" haha! Nevermind! my motives are still pure so I shan't add on! Then went sauna..haha! very hot too! ( of course!)

So he wants to get a Goal and commit to God. the rest are between me and him! So bathe then sent him off. and got home chatting and here again! =) actually today feeling very uneasy for this week, Got quite lot of things to do! like this week gonna have 2 orals, tests la, sheeps to meet, CG things to prepare..To be honest I am rather tired! but I gotta do it for I love God. =) Amen!? so tonight I am gotta get some refreshments during QT so..Nights! =)

A Break Before School Reopens

2009-09-13T07:38:00.000-07:00

Sigh, School is reopening again! Holiday so fast end hor! well gotta prepare myself, Exams are coming too..anyways, I got a good sleep today haha! slept all the way to 12pm! woke up, worship God first. been a while =).Bathe first, then played some mini-games,Then for breakfast Thank God for my mom she bought ciong huan ( if thats how you spell it..) then she went out to meet some people. while i happily play games =P

Then when my mom returned, she bought Nasi Ayam Penyek!!! Woot! Well its a famous..In english..Flat Chicken Rice Indonesian dish haha! My favourite too! Then continued playing haha! and actually I got no home work!( As far as I can remember! ) Sweet! Thank God also cause I found another website to watch Anime, Its free, it updates the latest, and ultimately I can enjoy!
oh also Thank god for people who also accompany me chat through the day haha..

Well, Gotta go first! need to sleep early, Pray that by faith! I can walk on through this tough weeks that is coming in! Nights!

12th Sep Service

2009-09-12T09:53:00.000-07:00

Hey, Yo! Here again..haha..Morning, actually I wanted to do QT in the morning but I didn't do so for ended up I go back to sleep so I need to rush down! So bathe,eat breakfast etc..finished le! rush down to Mac, sadly some of my baby sheeps can't make it! Well long story but..JA needs to sleep earlier in future! Yay! but thank god Marcus came down despite the other 2 cannot make it! So off we went to Somerset. then went for service.

During Service, wah, Praise and Worship was somewhat different! Don't think it matters of the worship leader leading much but more to really having a heart that just want to do so! During the worship, God really reminded me again of how great he his through this song..which is [ Worship You Alone by Planetshakers ] Familiar I would say..but God really touch me again and reminded me that, God! that you are really really great! as the song goes- despite I wouldn't reveal it, I am really moved to tear that I have such a great God. =)

Sermon was about Nehemiah again, but Its still applicable how Nehemiah story really applies to our life not literall but more spiritual. "What Really Are The Cracks Of Our Lives?" And Prana please do look through it whenever you can..Well many times we respond during Altar Call and how many times do we actually respond and apply it to our lives? well, very few for me..true I admit! That is why there is always a time to change and that means NOW! I may not be able too apply all the things I responded of course! I am just a human, I am still imperfect you see. It takes time, but it needs to grow constantly! lets grow together Amen?

After service ended, went Le to eat again. ( we seriously need to change man! I am getting bored of Le food! ) Ate Nasi Lemak, to be true, I only ate it a few times in that stall before..then Qing meet us. To remind us of the Vision that ED1 have! "To fulfil the Great Comission by Building Strong and Biblical Guys who are FBL To Plant Strong and Biblical Community of guys who are FBL in Each of the Far East Schools in Singapore." Aiyah! Something like that I suppose..+_+

Then go Lan! Play DotA again..! oh dear! well we still enjoy it, right? haha..Then go Mac slack..Play Deal..Then Qing Meet DMM..Ok what happen during the meet is refered back in my sermon notebook so I shall no write anymore about it here..Then when it ended the Dmm slack again at Mac but I gotta rush home first..And here I am, Blogging again! Alrights! I gotta go first! Nights! =)

East Coast Outing!

2009-09-11T10:20:00.000-07:00

Alright! wow, been a great day today man..Start off,Firstly in the morning, woke up late after setting off the alarm cause I got remedial class. which is going to start at 8.30 and I woke up at 8. 15 ..haven't bathe,haven't eat, need to go on the way etc..plus whats worst! I got a tummy ache..so haiya, bo bian..then I late le lor..not just that! this subject teacher for my remedial is poa and she quite have trouble with students who ponteng will be in danger*.

But I can't deny the fact that I will be late because I got the tummy ache. so no choice loh. use the toilet first..Thank God after I pray the ache wasn't so bad! see! so good to have God in your life right? any ache also got Holy Physician..24/7 some more! well anyway, so I was on my way to school. reached there at 8.50..then a surprise awaits me. turn out that she changed the time to 9 because she knows we will be late cause want to sleep etc..Wah thank god man! means that I am not late!

Then another surprise comes, when she suddenly ended us at 10.00am sharp ( first time leh cause normally she will end us in 1h30mins time but today she gave us 30mins shorter! )
yeah means I can rush down to meet my care group for outing!

So went home packed my things then off I go! waitted for bus, went on the way, reached at marine parade, and met them there.so we went together! yeah! and the sun was shining bright! a good day for us! so we started up, well get heated, and off we go to swim, push people down..( Star was a tough one..) after that we buried yi hao under the sands. (photos get from him) actually quite shiok he said..=P then played some digging competition! strangely enough,yi hao won! wah! so we need to do whatever he said for 1 wish "roll on the sands.." well pretty dizzy but oh well..

And not long later, we see grey clouds, oh dear.. why is it that during outings it always rains? we don't know either but we just prayed anyway, and it hold out for a while before it rains later!
then suddenly, Song and Jemson lost their phones and wallet..Oh no..but we tried checking around our bags but still can't find it, so call 999 (something which andrew likes to say but we seriously did) so 999 to the rescue came, we are actually laughing cause we though officiers will come in bicycle holding umbrellas since its rainning ended up they brought the whole car along.hahaha. neways, they asked some questions and then they went off.

Mood was abit dead but, today is the day that the lord has made! so let us rejoice and be glad in it! =) and off we go do some cooking and boiling..of maggie mie..but since we cook (for the bbq pit is wet)..under shelter its still considered illegal. so then about 4 National Park Keepers came and took picture of the solid fuel being burnt for the cooking( but we clear it in the end though ) then they took our EZ-link cards and record our ic etc..well some of us were rather unhappy cause like we wan swim and play it rained and lose handphone, we wan enjoy ourselves with food and get scolded by National Parks keepers..But thats fine though since everyone's spirit is brought back to normal later on.

After that we settled down at Mac, most of the grads leave, left with me darren, marcus,andrew and sam. We were just playing poker, then we decided to do some planning..and our conclusion is Go Lan. (again) but thats ok! if everyone can enjoy themselves! took 15 to tamp then darren drop off first. then reached tamp where aloy join us to play.

The game was abit screwed but I had fun though with andrew for DotA (Ursa and chicken) joke haha.well anyway, went home for dinner and here to end. Tomorrow got service..Nights =)

By the way! Photos is here! I don't think its too obscene since its been posted to Facebook!
anyway these are The Macho Guys of ED1! :D

Guitar workshop & Hair Cutting Affair

2009-09-10T09:53:00.000-07:00

Returned! oh I am so tired! today, morning was playing my game, watching anime. when andrew messaged me saying he was to have a hair cut! so, since I wanted to cut too I decide to meet him up later to go together! later... Continued doing my stuffs while my mom went out get ingredients for rawon( think this is how you spell it..) its a very good soup which indonesian make..cause I wanted to have lunch at home.
And so my mom returned not long after, and she got cooking then I get eating! of course! after that I prepared to go out as I am gonna cut my hair with andrew. then brought my dad's guitar Amplifier out since ying jie needs it. actually thank god cause the amplifier previously was passed around here and there, now I am not even sure if the wires to attach to my guitar is still there or not..oh well! God take control!
Met andrew at small mac then we go together. Thank god again the bus arrived exactly when we reach the queue! we sat less than 10secs. so we when we took the bus, alight, reached the place! ding dong bell, then the ironic thing the auntie said is "hey you wait for just awhile!" so andrew asked "how long?" the auntie replied "1hour" so we were like " what the.." fancy telling us to wait for just awhile* when she told us to wait an hour!? Oh well! so off we go to the lan shop to consume 1hour of our time! Played garena and we are like screwing the game and not playing properly =X haha by the way the computer in sports hall lousy one! least me and andrew manage to fellowship together even if the game is screwed! :) strangely enough, met paul when we were paying the bills* after that match! sadly we can't accompany him though..=/ so off we go..back to the auntie and thank god! she has finished!
so we scissors paper stone and loser cut first! yet I won and i cut first?! sigh! I actually wanted a moo-hawk but oh well she ended up giving me short =/.. ( I also need to be thick-skinned in future! ) well god acutally use this chance to test my security though cause me and Him know that I am unstatisfied with my hair (my head feels lighter though!) well! its ok! so I went home changed prepare for guitar worshop! I remembered that I am created as the most handsome guy in God's eyes! :) I should be secure in Him! AMEN!

I was on my way to nexus, I am actually feeling uneasy cause there isn't anyone I know going!
but thank god, God sent Charles to accompany me! actually me and charles met quite alot of times for the same class or workshop..or etc..anyway! Thank god for Kaiwen and all the other few people who spend their time to put in effort for this workshop! I learnt alot too! widen my guitar skills also knowledge on it. to be a better guitarist for God!

When the lesson ends,then I went eating wanton mee with charles (by the way its quite good le!) after that went home together. Alright now! I am gonna take a rest, very tired!!! plus tomorrow got remedial and going east coast park for CG fellowship! so Good nights! =)

Metamorphosis.

2009-09-09T08:59:00.000-07:00

Alright! Back again, oh firstly yesterday! Had remedial class, history + physics. history class wasn't so bad but physics class only have 2 people +_+ me and other person, who attend..well that is ok, since Knowledge is Power! reached home. confused, actually intend to cut hair, but ended up watching anime at home..well that is ok, since we need to take a break at times! =P

So today! had metamorphosis! woohoo! it was awesome man! starting by the day, woke up had breakfast meet-up at small mac and off we go! so lets jump off to during the time where it begins, got started with Knowing God sermon by Dennis Loh! despite its a new-believer's teaching, Its still applicable to all! Somethings that I learn is that..
-When we first know God, our motives for coming may not be the best or good but God should be found at the end of the day, and Christianity is a GROWING Relationship not a religion.
GROWING was highlighted because I truly agree that when our relationship with god is stagnant, its very hard to hear or draw closer, which happen to me last time, I am physically in church, but my relationship with god is stagnant. and that is what Not gonna happen to me again!

Now Lunch! by the way, I bought mixed noodle and it was totally cheap(seriously) and not shiok and not filling +_+ how I wish starhub food court is rebuild again..sigh..so nevermind! still we need to thank god for the food amen?! haha!

After lunch, Second teaching was by Daniel chia, by the way, he likes to play *Simon Says* its TRUE! He mentioned about caring about the church, and something that renewed me again is my purpose of serving, reminding me that doing ministry especially, for me is offering counter duty...it may be a very mathematical and count-money duty, but I should really know that I am doing this for God's church! and probably I can add a Prayer during the duty..

Finally, they were preparing for games, and thank god! my 3 SpringField new-babies came down even though they had the trouble of rushing down after school! Thank god for their willingness! yeah! so we played Game Of Life 2nd Version from the previous metamorphosis!
Guess what? We didn't go Jail at ALL! yeah! but Yi hao group went there nearly 2-3times =P muakakaka! so we go around stations doing the required things by the station master's wants.
played most of the station games which e.g. Minesweeper, Bible Study ( Action Method rocks! ), Drama, Rope Skipping, and after gathering, we decided to place all on shares!
Despite there is just a small gain, Guess what again? We Won first prize of the whole game! yay! thank God! and yi hao group won third prize! yeah! God Bless us a lot this time round!=D
Prize is Merci-Chocolates!( one of my favourites!) & the chocolate cookie( haven't try yet though but nevermind!) + Yi hao side sommore! woo! we trashed this time round!

When things settled down, had Holy Spirit Baptism! to be true I was waiting for this one all along! the reason is, I wanted the 3 springfield babies to receive them! I just realised that I am like desiring the holy spirit for them instead =P but I thought that and I found out that, its truly the heart of shepherd & joy that God has given me to see my baby sheeps growing to receive the holy spirit! Wow! its a new breakthrough for me! yeah! Praise God again! =D I believe the 3 of them received it ( I suppose cause 1 or 2 of them wasn't very sure about it..)

Had Dinner at Long John Silvers! (again..) but I love the cheese man! ( jian an said he never eat LJS before! can you believe it?) well there is always the first time! after dinner then, we are just waiting for a great time of Praise and Worship and Prayer!

During the P&W, God also renewed my heart again to praise him crazily* truly not to because I have to do so but because Its from the bottom of my heart that desires to praise him crazily!
Woo!!! had a time of prayer, and of course, I gotta remember, my school is still waiting to be conquered! and so is my studies! I will conquer them in Jesus name AMEN!

Went carefour walk walk buy drinks. instead I didn't buy anything..the place itself provide free water to drink the one from the cone, haha! praise god! he blessed me with free water! getting thirsty now...=P..after that went home by bus despite its really far from PS to my house..( Reading will consume the time really*)

Not long after, Reached home,take a shower, enjoy my supper that is cereal.. I am now here again! to write about how god have blessed me through today! Well, Getting Sleepy, gotta rest soon! Nights!

Studying & Shepherding.

2009-09-07T07:23:00.000-07:00

Morning, ahh remedial! sigh, Accounts some more! quite tiring, but thank god my accounts teacher just give me a nag since I forgot to do the corrections for one of the homework..phew, Thank God! haha, got a lil problem with Poa =/..always drag de..but anyway..then done le I went off to west mac..study..pray that my maths will improve for my next test. I last time quite good at maths de..but when your not faithful with your gifts..God will take it away..Praying that my maths will improve again!

Met vylan after studying..then we go eat Astons! woohoo! Shiok ah~! I was just challenging vylan to be Dmm by end of december! he actually said steady at first but he is quite smart to later question me to pierce if i fail to reach my own goal!

Pretty smart to use my words back, but I need to get things right with him cause my mom restrict me to pierce! ( why would I pierce my ear in the first place! ).

Well, now watching anime! I gotta remember to spend time with God! Nights! =)

Weekend!

2009-09-06T06:40:00.000-07:00

Whoops! sorry forgot to post yesterday..was too tired..anyways..yesterday morning woke up, prepare, meet up at small mac. Was a bit tired though, since had some tiring event on friday. anyway! Going to service should be a Joy! not a burden! Reached! Prayer meet..Oh and Andrew owe me a Prayer! He was suppose to pray for me when we lack of time! HA! then P&W! Woohoo!

But since I was sick on friday I don't wanna exhaust my body too much. since its not fully recovered..but i notice something was wrong with the lights which cause a bit different atmosphere but to be true..it matters a lot! Manage to still praise and worship god but I am a little bit distracted by the drummer..cause I kept dreaming as I always want that one day I will be a Praise and Worship Drummer too! Been working on that but still got a lot to learn! Then after the P&W the Preacher was Dennis! whoo! We talk about Nehemiah..wow..yesterday I really learn a lot through prayer and planning. Few things that I learn is that. surely, faith without actions is dead!
If we Dream big* for god, we need to Do big* for god too! dream big* but do nothing = dead* Dream Big + Do Big = Miracle thats why, we need to pray, plan and get it done!
I too am praying I won't just pray and leave it as it is. but pray and plan as well! Amen!

After service, did Offering counter duty then rush off to Le to eat.
met up with the rest, have lunch, fellowship.then off we go america's room! celebrate Dennis Birthday! Sing him songs! and watch some affirmation videos from the leaders..Then took some photos! Let me bring some pictures to my blog...Aiyah..some problem with the pictures later then I upload bah!

Then go centerpoint mac stuck around..ohh was talking to ah ding and Min jie actually one is from the super guai the other is the super gangster but they seriously get along well...so after the long chat then side track to one piece. we decide play a round of dotA! haha! with garena together aloy mj, ding and me. we trashed that match man! to be true mj and ding very zai =P.. haha but I use invoker not very easy to mess around with! ANYWAY! finished game then Dmm,

Dmm planned for how our nb exp god more. and it ended like quite late..but thank god again! I took 14 ( not last bus! ) even if its 12 o'clock and it took me from dhoby ghaut back home only 30mins to reach! thats fast! but oh well..thank god my dad and mom asleep hehe..but they never scold me! but they are just glad I am home safe.

After bathing..I was suppose to sleep but ended up watching that taiwan video which my sis brought home..+_+.. ( hey actually quite interesting le! =O ) haha..

So today! thank god! I can watch anime! cause ah ding give me the site to watch and its not too heavily populated so the buffer and everything still in good shape! and they update to lastest and the old videos is still available to watch hehe!

after watching went out with my family..to raffles city area..my dad wanted to go to butan for some mediation so he needs a powerful sleeping bag that can hold 0 degrees celsius.. went to camper's corner..check out and saw -40 degree celsius is also available! wow! but it cost...1k...wow...would you think my dad will buy it? certainly not!

then we walk around..finally had our dinner at pizza hut! haha! to replace friday's dinner when I can't make it..then went home. to blog again! well..guess its time for anime-ing! so good nights!

A Sickness of Thanksgiving

2009-09-04T07:30:00.000-07:00

Yeah! Praise God! Last Day Of School man..and I manage to settle my report to Miss RA..Went gym for some workout before I go find DM..Once home, thought of going out however, Instead ended up everyone busy so I stick around at home, OH, and the account man who always upload One Piece Episode on Youtube.com have been suspended..Sigh..can't watch it anymore, need to find others =/. So I played Warcraft III Campain

During the game, I suddenly felt the usual Terror is coming. and that sensation thrills me from head to toe. feeling as though something gonna happen even though I know nothing's gonna happen to my house..then I started walking up and down to chill it away.When I was at the living room, suddenly everything slowly turns black as though I closed my eyes. I tried to open my eyes yet my whole body was numb, can't move. And yes, its a seizure.

I do have seizure since young but recently it have been occuring here and there..like once in 10months? which is bad for me. when I passed out, what I saw was like a very quick movement however I can't see clearly and I can't even breathe. then I lifted up my head and "phew, glad I am back" however, my mouth is unable to speak, my head is throbbing, my body is numb. Thank god my mom was there to bring me to the room and help me up. then I decided to take a rest.

While lying on bed, I was just talking to God, and just complain to God like " God why is it that it happen again? " and God reminded me about the life of Job. where Satan struck him with a serious illness and tests not once! not twice!. yet Job remain to be faithful and choose to trust in God rather than to blame God for your bad circumstances.

And at that time I really thank God that, He wouldn't put me in circumstances,challenges,tests etc. where we can't handle but to rely on God for strength. Despite this is an illness that I had since young, right now, even if I have all the right to complain about it, I just wanna thank God for being with me through it all. because he was always there!

Yeah! well then, I better get some rest early, since I just had seizure, I need to ensure my brain have enough rest for tomorrow's service! so I will sleep early! Nights! =)

Delivered from the hands of the DM!

2009-09-03T08:10:00.000-07:00

Yeah! back blogging again! today, got lots of administrative things to do like ask sign this sign that..still got homework..but its ok i finished it! =D oh by the way, just now in school Miss RA was like giving me the "Show me watcha' Got!" look and saying you show me what you can do as a prefect. well thank god things went fine! got my result slips...And seems like I really need to work on my maths! I got "U" which is really bad for an Indonesian, for mostly they quite Zai at mathematics. and last time maths was my trump card. Now its my biggest burden. which is dangerous..gotta work hard man..Anyway my english improved quite a lot! manage to get A again.
yeah thank god!

When school ended, looked for Miss RA, to pass to her my reflection of Being a Good Prefect*
well, I written about 1k plus and I said, sorry I only write 1k plus..she said "ya I told you to write 1k" so I was a little puzzled..yesterday she said 2k CLEARLY now she told me to write 1k only?
well thats fine, so I asked her, you told me to write 2000 words right? she replied "yes 1000 and count your words, sign and give it to me tomorrow" so I just alright fine..neways thank God she didn't give me the intimidating lecture. which I always dislike..anyway Thank God haha!

On my way home, My phone dropped on the road, I am like OUCH! thank god only scratches..not that serious..Reached Home, settle things out the forms and sign etc..and sent Birthday affirmation email for Dennis,Tsk* Then Off to bed! ahh..thank God again that sleeping is a Gift! woohoo!

Wake up, did my homework, dinner and here I am again! Now I wanna go do my Quiet Time..No disturbance! Nights!

Dentention Day!

2009-09-02T06:44:00.000-07:00

Oh By the way, last night....PRAISE God! I found my sony ericsson earpiece! haha =D
I been looking for it for very long! Anyway..today's day not say very good cause during chemistry class, one of my chemistry teacher was absent since my class is a 2 split classes. so my other chemistry teacher decide ok! break and free period for chemistry 1hour lesson! woah, so shiok! free period! so my classmates begin to scatter to their cliques,talk and etc..

Not long later, Miss RA walk pass..so this means..GAME OVER!!! Die, despite all I did was simply talking to my chemistry teacher* all the way, I am responsible because I am a Prefect! ( Not really a WOAH thing since Class leaders + Prefects are the one taking the blame) so Die..after school..

After school comes, and I received a scolding for abt a min..then we are told to write reflections..
after that she told us to read out our reflections..then as before I finished, she said " you never write anything about what you could do or what did you do" to be true I wrote it but she interupted and scolded me before I manage to finish the whole reflection and so I thought "ok fine, thats alright" and then she said you write 2000 word reflections! I am like "What The" 2K? are you serious?! Well Yes she is.

So I started writing writing..then my last year chinese teacher ask for some help Timer for the sec 1 Oral. and Miss RA sent me so I bo bian.. go lo.. and all I did was " ok 5mins is up, stop reading and wait for your turn" After that, I checked out my DM's Corner and found she isn't there, probably she went home, then my few class leaders was also not there, so I looked around and found one, and she said she was allowed to go home even though she was told to wrote 2k and she only finish writing 1k plus! sigh, just count myself unlucky..

Anyway, despite some troubles, I gotta be joyful! because Today is the Day that the Lord has made~! Let us rejoice and be glad in it~! Whoo! A BIG REFLECTION can't beat My BIG GOD! Amen? Truly thank god I got him to go through this together! =)

Oh! now is the time for American's Got Talent! Maybe I will watch it..neways, Nights!

Don't Forget The Lyrics! East D 1 Version!

2009-09-01T08:27:00.000-07:00

Yeah! today, our care group got the most interesting event of all! Don't forget the lyrics! East D 1 Version! haha..! very Fun!!! basically not much rule is changed but instead of having lifeline we have 3 brains to think and sing together! so Cool right!

In The End, 2 Teams lost! Yi qin, daryl & Jemson. also Joel, Andrew, song & paul! it turned out the loser do forfeit! haha! actually wasted i should have taken pictures of the 2 drinks of forfeit! wah Shiok! probably I need to work on that!

Neways, I gotta thank god for the fellowship is what matters!

today Star taught about worship. truly, worship is not Just a session but is a form of expression of love in every simple things we do! Remember it!

Yeah! Then later we had a good times of POOL! not swimming but..play Billard! By the way, Madnessly* This is Joel House and he has it! Reminder to Prana: Alfon will get it from me! HAHAHA! whoops..Love,Joy,Peace,Patience..

So, went to Simpang bedok to eat prata and spend time with God. and Home again! By the way, Mentalist show is not bad le! gotta check it out! Every Tuesday 10pm-11pm on Channel 5! haha..alright, gotta go off first! Nights!

A blessing for break!

2009-08-31T10:07:00.000-07:00

Yeah! back again,today, is Teacher's Day celebration which means teachers takes a break by default, Breaks for students too! yay! praise god! so I have time to sleep later! and praise God! I no need to lead care group roles this week! not to say i wanna slack,but to take a break for a week!

Met Marcus today, thank god he is comfortable in 1 to 1 basis. If future being a shepherd of another sheep is not easy ya' know! Meet up together, (long story then..) go bakerzin have some desserts! went back home for some treats for pasta at home! then have some entertainment to watch anime!

Despite, doing my stuff may not always be fruitful, however, yet doing so I can play whee! Thank god! =D well that's all for today, got care group tomorrow. Nights!

Another day with god.

2009-08-30T07:48:00.000-07:00

OH gosh..Seems like i have let this blog rot again, so i am gonna clean and clear it!
an update of whats going on, well quite alot of things is going on..

To be frank, Alfred is avoiding me..probably he is just refuse to commit to God yet. but i pray some day God will nudge him and bring him back =)

So,God bless me with a 3 New guys! woohoo! a VERY BIG BIG Jump! vylan is probably enough to trouble me..One is a returned sheep! one is a Emo-christian! another is a decent person who wants to know more about god!

Since the last 2 week, I wanna thank god for being with me through as I have quite alot of things to do. includes -Papers -Learning CG roles -Meeting the sheeps.. -Trouble with Miss RA,Discipline Mistress ( hate this but I can hang around with her now! ) AHH!!! truly a great trouble! however I really thank god for being with me through! Today is sunday..therefore!

A New Week Has Begun! How Exciting A Life With God Can Be Man! Woohoo! From today onwards! I am gonna try my best to blog everyday and things to thank god for! Nights!

Notice & Announcement

2009-06-16T06:19:00.000-07:00

I will be posting my learnings more on the East D Blog those that involves and that went through with the group so, I will blog lesser on my own blog but I will continue reviving this blog if it dies!

East D 1 blog -> http://Eastd-forgod.blogspot.com/
Paulus,

Beginning of Unstoppable

2009-06-11T05:48:00.000-07:00

Yeah! UNSTOPPABLE IS HERE! Just a several more hours!
Really fast right?
I don't believe it myself, its like,
Puff* Oasis is OVER!
Puff* Heroes is OVER!
next is UNSTOPPABLE!
Sweet! Really excited for the praise & worship, fellowship, games EVERYTHING!
And most important one..
For God To Speak A Word That Will Change My Life Forever!
Yeah~! Camp is always Ultimate!
Waiting For God To Move!
Can't Wait For It!
Whoops! Gotta Start Packing..
I shall be,
UNSTOPPABLE this camp.
AMEN!

A New Seed!

2009-05-23T22:11:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I really thank God again! cause He have brought a new brother to this family! His Name Is ALFRED!

Woohoo! And He gonna be my next sheep* mehehe..
Anyway, I really thank God! cause ever since I been a Christ-Follower till now, which is roughly 3 years, there none that I really SOW and actually came down to receive Jesus willingly or Un-Cluelessly. Yeah! Thank God For Alfred!

And~ our ED1 have a great time fellowship-ing @

Just-Acia~

How Cool Is That!

Praise God! For Our CG have grown!
Now lets see a greater Breakthrough In Masquerade.!
Amen! =)

Amazed

2009-05-12T04:25:00.000-07:00

Yeah~! In the midst of examinations is where we need God the most! Few nights ago, God spoke to me through a verse for the First Time of Me Playing guitar to worship God. I really thank God for this worship =) it is so man..indescribable!
I was playing the song Amazed. and this really something which I really want to sing to God. In the worship, I am just enjoying his presence and man..You gotta experience and meet God yourself!*
"How Deep,How Wide,How Great Is Your Love For Me. Lord I Am Amazed By You" This song really struck me a lot and really how awesome is my God man!
After the worship, I flipped my bible, I remembered I have a book mark of a verse.But there is God spoke to me through this verse.

[ 2 Corinthians 6 : 4-10]

Rather, as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: in great endurance; in troubles, hardships and distresses; in beatings, imprisonments and riots; in hard work, sleepless nights and hunger; in purity, understanding, patience and kindness in the Holy Spirit and in sincere love; in truthful speech and in the power of God; with weapons of righteousness in right hand and in the left; through glory and dishonor, bad report and good report; genuine yet regarded as impostors; known, yet regarded as unknown; dying, and yet we live on; beaten, and yet not killed; sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet making many rich; having nothing, and yet possessing everything

This night I make a testimony that I received a word from God through my own guitar worship!
In the times of valleys, In the days of trouble, In this midst of problems and In this life that all things may go against us, but trusting God means winning the battle. For the Victory is With Me! =) Amen

Shadow in God's Presence

2009-05-01T08:40:00.000-07:00

Ahh! Back to Blogging again~!
Few days ago, I am really thankful for God! Again*!
While i was walking on the sidewalks,reaching my house,
Take a Look at this.

Interesting huh? guess whats this
-a) A picture of a cross from Internet
-b) A Black Sword( from a game? you Sure?)
-c) A black ink splashed nicely on the ground
-d) A Lamp Post with a sign

Answer is d)!!!

YES! its simply a lamp post with a sign..before that the color is rather dark so i equalize and brightened it a lil bit.
You may ask me, whats the point in taking a picture of a shadow of a lamp post
I Tell You,
this lamp post is EXTRAORDINARY!
because, this lamp post secures and assures me of God's presence.
we may believe that ohh! God is omni-present and he is EVERYWHERE!
but its very hard sometimes if we are stumbled and Faith and Trust is lacking.
because we mostly rely on our senses to know him. Like oh I FEEL God today! or oh I Maybe got FEEL him in worship!
who really cares whether you FEEL Or Not! He Is Just THERE!
Not Behind,
Not In Front
But Beside us,Together!
He is always with us Forever and ever and ever and evermore!
How great can that Be!?
Do we need to think twice before Knowing that God is with us?
We Don't have to! [ Hebrews 13 : 5 ]
Thank You Lord! =)

His Love Is Enough =)

2009-03-02T02:55:00.000-08:00

Hey!Seems like I haven't blog for awhile =P. Recently God Bless me with this cool new believer! despite it wasn't i who brought him, God placed him under me therefore he is MINE HAHA! Just kidding, He belongs to god! I am just taking care of him =)
Last Week, I was suppose to help pray for him for Holy Spirit Baptism. But while looking for verses One of the verses that struck and remind me greatly is
[1 Corinthians 13:1-3]
"If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, But Have Not Love, I am Only a Resounding Gong or a Clanging Cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if i have a faith that can move mountains, But Have Not Love, I AM NOTHING, If I give all i possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, But Have Not Love, I GAIN NOTHING.
This totally struck me and remind me that, I serve God to My Best! But if i have not love, how can I please God? How can Paulus please God? We always Chiong to Conquer Schools but we need to remind ourselves daily that we are doing this because God First Love Us, And So We Love.
This is a song that actually reminded me again(twice) and i wanted to share too. Enjoy =).(Song No Movie, My Apologizes =P)

Song: Love (with Watoto Children's Choir)
Artist: Chris Tomlin

When our hope is hard to find
And our faith is in decline
We need a cause to stand behind - love
We all want the way it feels
Time it comes and time it steals
What remains, what is real - love

[Chorus:]
There is love
There is forgiveness
There is love in times of need
When life is cold there is a promise
You will never go without...
There is love

It heals the sick
Comforts the weak
Breaks the proud
Raises the meek
In this life no guarantees...

Love is the answer
Love will find a way
When we love one another
It's a brighter day

Thank You Lord. =)

Heroes Camp,

2008-12-18T04:27:00.001-08:00

This Heroes Camp Is Really AWESOME! The T-Shirt Is Cool, The Food Is Good ( Sadly Not Buffet Like Oasis Did Though) The Fellowship And Games Was Good Especially The Praise And Worship! But Ultimately I Really Experience God A Lot And God Spoke To Me Deeply As Well In This Camp.

I Learned The Characteristics Of The Heroes In The Bible Each Have, Which Makes God Really Pleased In His Eyes. To Make Things Faster* This Is My Learnings Which I Emailed My Shepherd.

Moses - Humility
Humility Means Knowing One That He Is Weak (And He Needs God.)
Action => We Need To Accept Partnership With God Because Though I Can't* God Can*
Which Is Why We Should Spend Time With God Daily Where We Can Listen And Hear God's Message And Calling.

David - Loyalty
Loyalty Means Act Of Bringing Himself To A Faithful Commitment To The Leader Or Cause.
Action => Obey Your Leaders Faithfully ,Whole Heartedly And Lovingly. To Love And Forgive* The Unlovable & Unforgivable.( Loyal To Each Other )

Abraham - Faith
Faith Means Trust On Something Or Someone. Trust On Something That Has Yet To Come(Something) / Trusting The Person Of A Task Or Responsibility(Someone)
Action => Having Great Faith Moves Mountains, I Will Pray And Have Faith In God That This Christmas,
God Will Do A Miracle And Bring The Friends And Contacts We Are Working, Fasting, Praying For And Let Them Begin Have A Relationship With God Too =) And Our Group Will Grow! Amen !? =)

Ester - Courage
Courage Means Standing Up For The Right Thing Despite Fears.
Action => I Will Overcome My Fear Of Outreaching To A New Level Of Courage ( In A Sense, Despite My Soul* And Spirit* Wants To JUST WHACK*, My Body* Will Reluctant For A Moment. Where New Level Of Courage Means Overcoming The Reluctant Fear Of My Body*) [Hope Not Too Complicated For This One.]

Paul - Ambition
Ambition Means Having Conviction In Goals
Action => Just Like The ALLOUT Caregroup, We Should Be ALLOUT Like Paul Too =). Giving Our Best To God Rather Obedience Than Performance. [Paul: For One Audience, God And God Only]

If You See Things Clearly Right, Moses Was Short-Tempered, David Was Simply A Shepherd, Abraham Was TOO Old, Ester Was Just A Girl, Paul Was Once A Persecutor.Its Like Are You Serious? These People Are Imperfect! But Really, Thanks To Their Obedience, God Use Them To Make A Difference.

I Was Pretty Amazed Myself, But I Have Learned And Realized That I CAN Be Used By God Too. On The 3rd Day Of The P&W Session, Dennis Was Leading The Altar Call I Was Praying To God For A Vision Of My Direction In Life ( That Was One Of My Camp Objectives). Dennis Asked This Question " What Is The Biggest Dream You Want To Fulfil For God? The First Scene That Comes Out To My Mind Was Me Evaxing & Outreaching( Which Was Actually My Weakness) I Was Rather Confused But I Remembered That On November 18th The Post Which My Group Made A Devotion Book, While They Were Praying For Me God Prompt Winstar That I Will Be A Evangelist. Anyway While I Was Still Confused In That Second Dennis Followed Up A Word That " God Is Faithful In Fulfilling His Promises " So I Was Like "God, Is An Evangelist You Really Want Me To Be?" I Gave It A Thought After That Altar Call But, If Evangelist Is Really Who God Want Me To Be, Praise God! Despite My Weakness, God Will Prune It And Change To Strength! Amen!

"Another Spiritual Encounter With God" =)

A Day Before Departure..Just Away For 3 Weeks..HA!

2008-11-18T08:22:00.000-08:00

Yeah! Back To Blogging Again! Tomorrow I will be going back to Jakarta for holiday, But! This will be a time of Growth and time whereby I Can Learn, Grow,Date, Be Corrected & Pruned With & By God. Today my CG got a special event called..*drum beats* UNLEASH ( I spell it correctly did I?)

Its a 3 part teaching that involves and can improve ones relationship with God ( Not sure whether i Elaborated correctly) Ask YQ for more information. Anyway today teaching is about Insecurity. Dictionary.com define as " Lack Of Confidence and Assurance" believe this really applied quite a lot to what the world sees us as. we may sometimes be concern what others think about us..etc..but ultimately rather than small talks from the world, believe that God's Word matters more. Amen?
Later after it ended and everything we had dinner together. and my group's DMM had a short meeting of improvements on the teaching of UNLEASH*. Then my group made a small sorta like a book/those kinda where they can clip together one not sure what they call it. but anyway what I am really touch is " I am simply going oversea for like..only 3 weeks" but they made it as though like 1year etc..but just want to "Thank God For Them" Really. I can really sense that when we be sincere and go the extra mile a bit to bless others the same way. they are able to sense the care that God has shown though nothing compared to the †. but still its the Process Not About The Gift. which *brings the people together*.

People's Relationship with each care group member Are *IMPORTANT* "FELLOWSHIP" In Other Words. God Died for his CHURCH, His PEOPLE NOT THE BUILDING~!. Fellowship Brings The Unity In The Group. Lack Of Unity Brings Chaos Within The Group~!

Giving My Best

2008-10-01T07:59:00.000-07:00

Recently, I been troubled with my EOY( Its End of Year papers in case you don't know) along with doing school stuff, home chores, temptations to play,but Matthew 6 : 33 - But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.yeah! Amen? so we should really put god first because when we put God first, then everything will come together. Really challenge us to trust god. Do your best and god will do the rest!

Worship Musician- To-Be..

2008-10-01T07:53:00.000-07:00

This is really cool! God just blessed me through my dad with a drum set in Indonesia whereby i am able to learn drums in a new level! just a picture here..brand may not be much but..as long as i am able to learn some musical instruments where i am able to serve for worship purposes. really must thank god for it ! its second-hand though but my dad got it for a good price. next time, I will be a P&W Musician..muahaha! whoops..btw it must be spirit led! Amen? =)

2008-09-06T11:09:00.000-07:00

Yeah! back to blogging hehe... seems like i haven't blog for a long time again >.<.. Being hungry for god's word is good amen!? the more you ask god the more he will give it to you( What you NEED, WANTS may not guaranteed..) true? seems like now I got my very FIRST sheep Woo! but turn out to be a quite noisy and childish as expected :p so that god can train us to learn how to love the person despite his weaknesses. Primary 5 kid though =p but the good thing is he is hungry for god! thats the good part.kept asking me for shepherding etc.. cool right? hehe.

Recently, my walk has many ups and downs, though i am sinful( like duh) its rather hard to be righteous. in a sense TRYING their BEST to be sinless, i often fall to sin and feel regretful and begin condemning myself. thats twice. i rarely sin things that doesn't involve others, mostly are like, unfaithfulness, lazy..etc.but its still not a good thing.

At the end of the day, Satan's traps & temptations may be strong but remember that there is still someone greater than him and he is on YOUR side! what can be greater God? ;)

Old Prana's Gone,New Paulus Comes~!

2008-07-13T06:28:00.000-07:00

Today is really one of the greatest commitment in my life. My marriage with god! its really a great thing man. As Dennis lead me in the baptize, 3 questions, One Commitment - Declaring God as who he said he is and that he is true in my life.When I am submerge into water,Death To My Past. But when i rose out of water, Life In Christ.

Welcomed by God with open arms, from today onwards, Though i am still Prana, I am Paulus Spiritually. Turning From God I will not. But Turning To God I Will! Focusing On Him! =).This is just another beginning for me. Starting a new walk with God!

Paulus,Born In 13th July 2008.

The Outreaching Testimony

2008-06-25T07:04:00.000-07:00

Yesterday. I got the a very AWESOME outreach testimony. What happen was, " firstly during camp i promised God that i will give my ALL and BEST to pinoeer(Wrong Spelling) Bedok View Secondary. Seriously, in my previous 2 schools, tampines and saint hilda's, if not for my Alfon to give his best for tampines, there wont be 10 people if i am not wrong :P by now.
We paused saint hildas currently. so its time for me to seriously gather contacts and work on them, the people of bedok view. So yesterday, i was suppose to gather PHYSICALLY alone not Spiritually Amen!?yeah so i was really troubled throughout my school period because to tell the truth, I Am Scared To Outreach plus God changed my school dismissal time to end at 1.15 which was the same dismissal time as of Bedok View.Later Time flies and when school ended, i kept bargaining with God.So what I did was I will flip a coin thrice. Heads -> Outreach. Tails -> Go Home. so well i got 2 head and 1 tails [ NOT ON ME but on the Coin =) ] I told god that "God, you really are amazing because when i made that promise that I will pinoeer* The Schools that i am in charge of. God gave me ALL the ways me to do so" hard to say its roughly indescribable. Back to the subject -----> back to after i flipped the coin, i was on my way to Bedok View, through the tanah merah station. Fearful me needs Courage from god. so I called Winstar my shepherd( to think he actually go out of his class room during lesson just to pray for me outside through the phone, its too much of a coincidence. its TOTALLY GOD's Plan.) after praying. i saw 5 sec 1's playing around with the escalator waiting for the bus. I was like amazed cause this is really CRAZY! God actually add on more harvest after i bargain with him so long. God love us really so bad until like wah amazedly speechless. in the end PRAISE GOD! i got their contacts 5 of them! a while later 1 more came along and another 3 more! really crazy i got 9 of them on the spot! really really.
Wah. out of words =P. its totally all God's Blessings that actually helped me to get this 9 contacts. Later on i spent around 15mins talking to them all of them are responsive to rate they are around mid to high some are just ok ok. I learn a great lesson today which is actually "obedience brings blessings" sounds familiar eh?haha. Amen! =)

A Visit To New Creation

2008-05-25T07:47:00.000-07:00

oh today i visited new creation church together wit my uncle for he wanted to have lunch with us since my grandma is currently here. I can say that their service is quite good but i still like Hope Church More *Cheers* :D,evaluate? hmm...not sure xD but its still a place where people can find god(of course). oh by the way its at the same spot where we had our Sleeping Beauty Wake Up Leh event. at suntec city. the pastor though when he preached does not have a title but one of the things that really shocked me was when he preached about the parable of the sower.
Currently in my walk with god, its still not as good* as it is like cause I got to admit that i have been losing faith since this year i been asking around and none came down and officially say the sinners prayer and remain with us. though i been spamming questions which i already knew the answer to my leaders. what the pastor shared was that, whenever a farmer plant a seed, it does not grow immediately on that particular day or month. He needs to sow and wait for the right time to reap from the harvest. so the farmer will reap.In the same way, i must wait and sow on my friends till the right time where they will come to know God. So I too mustn't lose heart and faith. after the sermon i felt so dumb doubting god again, and again and again. .
Yesterday too Pastor Shirley preached about the habit of fasting, so by learning from these 2 sermons on 1 weekend it really encourage me greatly. pray that again my sheep will come soon =).

Ultimate laughing anime*

2008-05-12T08:47:00.000-07:00

In the month of feb, my older* brother visited me since he is having his holidays. this is a entertainment which he showed me. i just thought that its alright if i share along as well. Enjoy!
Ultimate isn't it ;D

Update~

2008-05-11T06:22:00.000-07:00

at times whenever i doubted God, my leaders always affirm me and encourages me saying that God is testing me, but at times when i wonder like in the situation where i am desiring for my sheep,to grow or0 experience God more, it really takes great faith to remain and to trust that God is still helping me and he is always saying "Don't worry, I have a greater plan for him".Sometimes i ask myself, is it I am the one who failed or is god really have a greater plan for my friends? I seek and found that the particular verse which God spoke to my Leader through me, was actually the same verse which encourages me that is Deuteronomy 7:9.and I am again amazed by him. :D

Update!! After a Long time

2008-02-17T06:28:00.000-08:00

seems like i been lazy blogging again..but its alright. after that steamboat incident, we had CAMP after several weeks ~ pretty sweet/enjoyable/Mass P&W,Testimonies and sermons. Time goes until this year. i had new class mates..to work on. one of them said yes to jesus!!but currently half-convert cause he is restrict of going service by his strict* uncle. now is my turn to find my sheep though that guy is stuck*,i need to persevere! So now i need to work on others and also find my sheep~ =). Oh today i went to do some workout & do some gym* for exercise. i ran that machine at 10.0 speed for 10mins,do many pedals,sit-ups then i tried to run more than 2.4km. i learnt last time from running from my leaders. like completing our vision, we need to run and run and run till we cross that line. so i ran 4.0km which is a break through for me~ sounds veri like "trying to act dramatic" kinda thing xP but seriously we need to go beyond wat we can do.with god that is. I learn this from a veri spiritual person.a Leader. Guess who =)
Clue:quite hairy, looks veri uncle uncle, but influencial!

Life Changing SteamBoat~

2007-09-21T05:18:00.000-07:00

I really thank god for this steamboat gathering! Early afternoon, Qin,Aloy and me first prepared the food for steamboat later on!Amusingly me and qin have NO idea on how to cook xD. Lucky thing my mom was able to help out xD. Time passed then Dennis arrived,then Star and the rest. Den wanted to go gym so i go with him lor. Since he is once a NS guy he is actually WAY stronger than me physically.Practise muscle,legs..etc. End of gym we go back up.Starting the SteamBoating* soon =). Since the rest is here, i called my "Long Be Waiting to Save Friend". Thank god he actually come down to join! Good thing the rest been Sow+ Comforting + Kind to him. He felt very comfortable and actually realised that there are some kind people. Soon later on 1 by 1 got to go Surprisingly he took the initiative to actually see them off each of them!!! I took some time to chat & Sow with him. Though Sow, I actually feel very happy for him. Later on Aloy inivite him down to service plus me & Yi qin talking to him. He felt very cared for and very like those kind of people with lots of good friends. He said Yes and will be coming for service!!! During that moment i was overjoyed!!!Felt like crying of happy tears. I spend some times talking to him when we went down to slack + chat more and more! When we returned it is ending soon. Pack up and again he see them off.Since it ended we went home to chat AGAIN now in msn. He said he enjoyed the SteamBoat & even thankful for it! I have a Prayer for him."Father Lord I wanna pray for this brother that you will remain in his heart all the time. I also want to pray that he will step the line of faith and live this new Spiritual Life with you.O'Lord also for the words that will be preached tomorrow will soften his heart! I Commit My Prayers and Hopes to you Lord.In The Name of Jesus..AMEN!" I will end this Blog with a Thanks To The Lord For Changing His Heart >> Praise >> Break Free yeah! =)

Most Momerial Experiance Of Doubt About God.

2007-08-25T08:24:00.001-07:00

Yesterday which was,friday 24th August 2007,i went to school as per normal but the day before had caregroup.Yi Qin sermon mention something about accountability & being responsible bout the sin that we done.He mention something bout passing god's test as well.As time passed,we went to food palace after caregroup.Winstar told me to outreach & gather contacts after school before my CCA.Though time clash, I still agreed anyway.The next day which is 24th august(currently the day before today) I was tempted not to go.which makes me reluctant to go gather contacts. So as i was disturbed i seek god.But God never answered, so i was tempted to doubt god even more.On that moment God was actually testing me to believe that he is actually listening to me.During that moment i started thinking about backsliding but I still struggle,actually i was unaware that God was actually helping me not to doubt him. so i just leave it and just went for my CCA. The next morning which is just now service.Pastor taught bout "Power of Praise & Worship"
the sermon was very meaningful(no need to rate for I am convinced every teaching bout god is always awesome) During that worship, God use the song "Savior King" to speak to me. At that moment, I had a feeling that there is a blood shedding dripping onto my head.my hands trembled & i suddenly got a flashback how god died during crucification.Remembering god's love,God spoke to me saying that even if u doubted me, I had paid the price & for then on nothing can separate our love from Christ.First Time God Spoke to me Straight through Worship
, I bowed my head & burst into tears.Testimonies & blessings from god is always wondrous.I shall remember this day.Amen..

Teaching : Conversation With God.

2007-08-11T06:15:00.000-07:00

Today's Sermon was great! Pastor Shirley taught about first is Conversing in Sincerity.Praying & having conversation with god. Christians while praying actually often drop to silent mode or maybe mentioned something repeated.When your mind lose attention, we should continue to speaking not to stop for God listens to us whether we knows or not..yeah!Sometimes ppl praying infront of the crowd to get their attention & impress others that they can pray and so on. We should change for this attitude for the right motive is what God wants us to grow as. Pastor then preached about Yielding in Submission.
The positive things at the wrong time is a WRONG thing. If we asked god for something, e.g. If its not the best he will say- No. If you're not ready- Grow If its not the right time-Slow If its on the right time- Go.Seems like God raise,teach,lead,bless us in many ways.
The final thing pastor preeched is Asking by Faith.Ask god for Provision,Forgiveness & protection. Never gave up praying till something happens A secret Code from Pastor Shirley : Frog= Forever Relying On God!Thank Pastor For Preaching =)

The East Brothers Event~

2007-08-10T06:40:00.000-07:00

Just now there was the East Bros event(There lately been many events happening) Something like Mcg.We at first played Basketball around 3 to 4 plus.I actually came late cause i forgot about the time. Actually i played basket ball half-way i went to join Erwin,Ming Jie & Yi Qin playing Cheat and Jack. By the way i jus noticed that Yi qin name looks like a girl name but when its pronousation sounds like a guy name,pretty cool huh?haha..To Yi Qin himself pls dun feel offended for i jus say it for the change of atmostphere if my blog to calm & silent =).
When I was on my way to the toilet wit Yi qin, Dennis Loh* not (dark lord lol!).told Yi qin to get the contact number for 2 secondary level students.At first me & Qin(for short) was quite afraid to approach them.But after some thought seems like we does this cause we love people for God who first love us. Yeah,Surprisingly we managed to get their contact number praise god! They're from Temasek Secondary. After that, we played awhile of card game again before we went to eat dinner again,most of the time is eat, eat and eat but strangely enough i never gain weight...haha..once thats done we went back home as usual hehe.Thank God for the Day yeah~

The Day For Men!

2007-08-09T08:33:00.001-07:00

There was a event going on just now morning for mens only hehe. from hope signapore~. Its was started early & we gotta meet up at YISHUN Mrt Control Station. Going from East to North is veri far...=.= i was quite tempted to go back to sleep to in the first place but since its for Men not for girl so must go(actually thats not the priority of me going to that event).Surprisingly we went to Yishun Safra. actually i though its quite small like safra tampines but its way bigger than i thought.xD we had games.like rock climbing, some mice game or what..not sure =P. & some swiming games too. but good thing it dried up on my way home.After the games Pastor Jeff taught us that as brothers we must bear Heart, Bear Hug & Bear with one another.yeah!

MCG! 5thApril

2007-04-07T07:49:00.000-07:00

Today was..MCG! yeah its awesome. meet a few new boys from Junyuan secondary,swt we went to Pasir Ris Park,then we saw this nice big net which catches our attention..call the wadeva space net =x. the first guy to reach the top..of course Star lar..=.=. Thanks to Tri...argh..i fell man..and darn my leg hurts >xS..Then the cool part is... we played goreng pisang gurong or u can say yi chi qin wa tiao tao shui,Pong*..and Andrew gotta do forfeit haha!..=D..actually is i plan de...haix...i am so evil xD..he gotta scream he is handsome in public...but he said Yi Qin ugly instead ar..haha..Yi Qin..poor thing ar..then we go near to the beach side making sand ball..the beach is so..like many dead fish...got sotong die sommore -_-"..Ewwk....well nice day guys =).

24thMarch-Farewell for grads

2007-03-24T22:38:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the last service i had wit my care group grads. most of them going to tertiary ministry sobs ='(. Thou sad, of course they cant stay in youth forever haha xD. The Group is getting smaller but i jus hope i can invite at least 2-4 person for EASTER SERVICE!Yay!Jia You Grads!(By the way sorry for not writing cards =x)