Hey, I am here to blog about yesterday, 28th February 2010. In the morning, I been waiting for so long, to play my FF8 & DotA. Simply because, I been fasting from games,anime & manga last week. So my hands was so itching to play..immediately after breakfast, I on the computer. at first I was installing some protection, an anti-virus on my computer since it was attacked few days back (so last night never get to play too sigh!) At first things went well, I downloaded Avast! and it was clearly things well. I was deleting the viruses..when it suddenly lagged.. So with the help of Ctrl-Alt-Delete, Task Manager, I end its process..and it gave me a 1min forced shut down..And to my surprised after it restarted..Something Terrifying happened..

My computer kept restarting OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER Endlessly again..so I tried many ways to use it and it kept on restarting OVER AND OVER again..So I went to my sis room and started groaning and scolding "Ce! Comp spoiled! It keep on restarting! Why!? I just want to play FF8 ='( !!!" Whats worst, there are many many photos..Many many games..many many files that are yet to be backed up..! My sister replied "hah? never mind lor wait lor" ( Actually she don't know whats happening, she don't know that the computer have yet to be on when it kept restarting so we cannot use nor save any of the files yet ) So for 1hour I kept going back and forth..running to my sister room to complain and going back to try again to fix..in vain..

After I got tired..I played my phone game when I accidentally press my NIV bible. Where God spoke to me through

^{2Corinthians 4:18
"18}So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen.
for what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."

And I was like ya, Probably I was hooked into FF8, I should remember that things are just temporary! So I had my lunch with my sister first to calm down, at the same time praying that a miracle will happen.

After lunch I tried again. and the same thing happen..and I myself also kept doing the same thing. until my sister was so frustrated " Ai yo! He give and take away! Blessed be God's Name!" So I was like so "ya whatever!" in my Sian-ness despite knowing that God is hinting me that I really been caring about FF8 too much. After that I relaxed down..

And I take a rest awhile..And I tried again with the same results..and the exact same thing "God! I just want to play FF8!!!" Oh I like FF8 so much is because I use to play it last time but CD spoiled before I get to complete it. Now I can play because I got Emulator from Aloy. So my sister replied " Ai yo! Read this verse!( Posted on the wall )

Psalm 27:14
"¹⁴ Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD."

And again I thought " How long must I wait God!!! To Play FF8!!! " I know it actually that God is actually hinting me again. But I am just too into to play FF8. I tried use System Recovery Which I thought ended up reformatting but with Saved files but Virus attack and the same thing repeated..

So after that, My Dad called asking us to go out join them at Bugis as he is there with my Mom to buy Laptop for my sis at Sim Lim Square. My sister said "ai yah later can bring all the photos and everything into my new laptop mah!" ( She is going University so she will need a Laptop ) But I thought that "seriously you are not understanding whats happening to the computer"

On the way, My sister said "Ai ya, He Give and Take Away lahh, Blessed be his name" so I thought that yeah..This is really God telling me something..I really should bless His name anyway! When we met Mom and Dad,Uncle came along.

To cut short, my uncle actually bought 2 Laptops & 2 back-up Thumbdrive for us! even though I don't need it and my files are still there in my old Desktop! I was super SHOCK! Me? Get Laptop plus ETC, well my sister needs it but me? I don't need it!

And Whats Even better! I am using My Desktop to blog NOW because its Fixed! and I got a Laptop behind me now..left nice and cool, ( its worth 1.5k..) I am Awestruck! not only because of my generosity. But because of how God blessed me this much..wow, if this is not God who else?!

So Let us Focus our eyes on the unseen, Despite He give and take away, Wait Upon the Lord! Blessed be His Name!

Agape, Paulus





(Not a need to read all, Can scroll down if you decide to)
Haggai 2

The Promised Glory of the New House

¹ On the twenty-first day of the seventh month, the word of the LORD came through the prophet Haggai: ² "Speak to Zerubbabel son of Shealtiel, governor of Judah, to Joshua son of Jehozadak, the high priest, and to the remnant of the people. Ask them, ³ 'Who of you is left who saw this house in its former glory? How does it look to you now? Does it not seem to you like nothing? ⁴ But now be strong, O Zerubbabel,' declares the LORD. 'Be strong, O Joshua son of Jehozadak, the high priest. Be strong, all you people of the land,' declares the LORD, 'and work. For I am with you,' declares the LORD Almighty. ⁵ 'This is what I covenanted with you when you came out of Egypt. And my Spirit remains among you. Do not fear.'

⁶ "This is what the LORD Almighty says: 'In a little while I will once more shake the heavens and the earth, the sea and the dry land. ⁷ I will shake all nations, and the desired of all nations will come, and I will fill this house with glory,' says the LORD Almighty. ⁸ 'The silver is mine and the gold is mine,' declares the LORD Almighty. ⁹ 'The glory of this present house will be greater than the glory of the former house,' says the LORD Almighty. 'And in this place I will grant peace,' declares the LORD Almighty."

Blessings for a Defiled People

¹⁰ On the twenty-fourth day of the ninth month, in the second year of Darius, the word of the LORD came to the prophet Haggai: ¹¹ "This is what the LORD Almighty says: 'Ask the priests what the law says: ¹² If a person carries consecrated meat in the fold of his garment, and that fold touches some bread or stew, some wine, oil or other food, does it become consecrated?' "
The priests answered, "No."

¹³ Then Haggai said, "If a person defiled by contact with a dead body touches one of these things, does it become defiled?"
"Yes," the priests replied, "it becomes defiled."

¹⁴ Then Haggai said, " 'So it is with this people and this nation in my sight,' declares the LORD. 'Whatever they do and whatever they offer there is defiled.

¹⁵ " 'Now give careful thought to this from this day on ^a]">[a] —consider how things were before one stone was laid on another in the LORD's temple. ¹⁶ When anyone came to a heap of twenty measures, there were only ten. When anyone went to a wine vat to draw fifty measures, there were only twenty. ¹⁷ I struck all the work of your hands with blight, mildew and hail, yet you did not turn to me,' declares the LORD. ¹⁸ 'From this day on, from this twenty-fourth day of the ninth month, give careful thought to the day when the foundation of the LORD's temple was laid. Give careful thought: ¹⁹ Is there yet any seed left in the barn? Until now, the vine and the fig tree, the pomegranate and the olive tree have not borne fruit.
" 'From this day on I will bless you.' "

Zerubbabel the LORD's Signet Ring

²⁰ The word of the LORD came to Haggai a second time on the twenty-fourth day of the month: ²¹ "Tell Zerubbabel governor of Judah that I will shake the heavens and the earth. ²² I will overturn royal thrones and shatter the power of the foreign kingdoms. I will overthrow chariots and their drivers; horses and their riders will fall, each by the sword of his brother.

²³ " 'On that day,' declares the LORD Almighty, 'I will take you, my servant Zerubbabel son of Shealtiel,' declares the LORD, 'and I will make you like my signet ring, for I have chosen you,' declares the LORD Almighty."

Hey, Its been quite a while since I last blogged, Updates, Praise God! Maverick doing well! Connected to group slowly growing in God. And last week, I brought 1of my street evax contact friend down, and after a 30mins conversation he agreed to come down and he brought his friend along! despite he didn't convert for he is unsure of his decision and his friend is a visiting christian, Thank god he is quite connected to our group! and is coming for life group meet tomorrow!

"These Nights, Often, when everyone else is asleep, except I who have yet to fall asleep, Satan came to my presence to tempt, to make an exchange, to fall..Similar to buying business, A good offer, comes with a price. At times, I wanted to give in, yet again and again, the Spirit prompted me not to give in to the temptation, In my mind, I have to make a difficult decision, whether to accept his offer which has a very great consequence, or to resist the temptation and Just Say No. Thankfully, I Prayed, I told Satan that, No, I am sorry, I am not gonna be your customer. and thus I rebuked him with the Word of God. and Satan left. Thankfully, I made a right decision. and Peace filled my heart"





Hey, been a while since I last blogged, yesterday, Went for Word For Life, taught by Raphael & Sharlene, Teaching on Outreach and Discipleship. Though we have heard of it quite a few times, I really agree that, in our lives, what we do is basically these 2 things, to outreach to people, and disciple people. Understanding the significant of the how these 2 things can really transform lives.

After Word For Life, we went to eat, supposedly have Dmm after that, so we went Cafe Cartel, to meet up as usual at PS. Woah, and something memorable happened at Cafe Cartel! which is that while we are just eating bread, Qing told us that he lost his wallet and is at pasir ris. oh dear, at most it will take more than half-an hour traveling at least, well so we wanted to just leave after eating bread, ( Actually they charge for free! ) but it will be quite a scene to come Cafe Cartel and leave after eating bread for free. Aloy & Alfon wanted to just go but I agree with Yi Hao that it is kinda bad to just come a leave after eating bread for free. So never mind, the manager charged us $5 for eating bread..well..forget it..we gotta rush off anyway! ( Such an interesting event! so I must note it down here =P )

Then had meeting, after that quickly rush home, got nagged a bit though..After I bathe, went to use the comp, need to print some stuffs and prep teaching (which I just prepared now got nagged off to bed by my mom)..back to the point..Suddenly my old contact from bedok view started to share to me that he is actually listening to christian songs! and when we talked he started sharing me he is interested to come to church! Voa-la! Thank God! recently we have an old contact which was brought in by a west brother who is also from bedok view! woah! thank god! me and alfon's fruits of our labor is starting to bear! But while I was talking to him, the one who just nudge me in Msn, his name is maverick by the way! last time he joined us, and converted just to try a prayer, so he told me he doesn't want to commit and he only wanted fun as he got his CCA also, so now in my mind I was actually angry, I wanted to confront him, its like, Wah last time I asked for your commitment and you reject, ok fair enough, then you have fun for a awhile, ok fair enough then leave and go commit to your CCA, ok fair enough. now you say your interested and wanted to join our group again because you are bored during the holidays?!

Well, at first thought, I wanted to scream at him if he was just beside me, oh cmon, are you so Spiritual to think like Of course! bring him In! well maybe you are but that is how I Felt*. But I know that, it is the right thing to do to bring him back, so invited him for Life* Group tomorrow which is now, Today. At night, I was just doing my Qt,doing Devotions when God just speak to me at that moment. The devotions is actually talking about Jonah, at Chapter 4. about how Jonah was angry at God for being so gracious and loving that he seize his wrath from a people because they turned their ways and repent. Jonah was so angry at God's compassion that he just felt very displeased with God, so the Bible says in chapter 4: Read if you are willing to

¹ But Jonah was greatly displeased and became angry. ² He prayed to the LORD, "O LORD, is this not what I said when I was still at home? That is why I was so quick to flee to Tarshish. I knew that you are a gracious and compassionate God, slow to anger and abounding in love, a God who relents from sending calamity. ³ Now, O LORD, take away my life, for it is better for me to die than to live."

⁴ But the LORD replied, "Have you any right to be angry?"

⁵ Jonah went out and sat down at a place east of the city. There he made himself a shelter, sat in its shade and waited to see what would happen to the city. ⁶ Then the LORD God provided a vine and made it grow up over Jonah to give shade for his head to ease his discomfort, and Jonah was very happy about the vine. ⁷ But at dawn the next day God provided a worm, which chewed the vine so that it withered. ⁸ When the sun rose, God provided a scorching east wind, and the sun blazed on Jonah's head so that he grew faint. He wanted to die, and said, "It would be better for me to die than to live."

⁹ But God said to Jonah, "Do you have a right to be angry about the vine?"
"I do," he said. "I am angry enough to die."

¹⁰ But the LORD said, "You have been concerned about this vine, though you did not tend it or make it grow. It sprang up overnight and died overnight. ¹¹ But Nineveh has more than a hundred and twenty thousand people who cannot tell their right hand from their left, and many cattle as well. Should I not be concerned about that great city?"

So at that moment, God was speaking to me, For I am very angry at how Maverick reacted and now he is turning back to come back to join us again. And the Lord welcome him but I was really angry and unhappy about Maverick, just the same situation as how Jonah was angry about God having compassion for the people, so God is speaking to me,

" Do you have any right to be angry about Maverick? Maverick is my still my child who is lost just like you once were, and he cannot tell from what is right and wrong In My Eyes, How should I not be concerned about him?

And there I knew that, This is really God's heart beat for him. Now, I knew that, despite I am still angry with him, I need to Love him, because God Love him first. And I should look at him with the eyes of faith, looking at who he can be not who he is. Now I am Praying that, Maverick know will return back to God and walk in His ways again.

Alright, I will go off now! Good Bye

Agape,

Paulus

Ahh! I 18days never blog le! haha need to ge this consistent! thank god for the previous few weeks, we had our 2 Day of games in last week and last last week lead by Daryl & Ian, go Jurong Water theme park and Sentosa! Sweetness! so much fun and family haha! then this whole week, I came Yi hao house at least 4times, for Mahjong, Guitar Class, QT! hahah! And yesterday we had our ED1 1-Day Camp! haha, ED1 Guys are!
Fun Biblical Leaders
Godly Mans who will take the Lead! AMEN!

So that was yesterday! alot of fun and games and everything haha, phoots and videos take from Ian..and mandon,daryl, star and I was the loser for the day! hahaha! so fun!

Today, woke up find Jian an, however after waiting for awhile, my wait was in vain! he is asleep! But I really hope that Jian an will commit to the Kingdom and run this race together! despite he haven't been doing so well..Now, so no choice, rush to service! thank god for that I reach on time least for the worship session
We sang Ricky Skaggs - We all bow down & Revelation Song.
Its really true that that no matter who you are,we all will be able to worship and seek him.

The Sermon was about "Crossing impossibilities with our Faith!" haha we listened to the story of Moses! What am I gonna apply? Just have Faith + Do Actions = Mountains move! How fancy is it for the Israelite to cross the Sea with 2 pillars of water! " Underwater World! Tsk!" HAHA! anyway, my point is, God is really COOL! to build SeaWorld in just a few seconds huh! pretty a style God isn't it? But really we should believe and have faith in God! If he can split the sea into 2 pillars, whats more can God do with our obstacles and problems! Amen?

After service did some Admin stuffs, find the rest, playing L4D 2!!! wow everything is much much cooler! however they too many people so if i play i will likely be playing alone.. so bo bian, dont play lo. then we walk around Orchard Road. looking for our ED1 Camp Shirt! thank god we found it and everyone's got it! pictures later..

Then slack at Shaw house Mac. and thank god for Yi hao who got many instant coupon! after eating and happily chatting, including talking about how good and bad our school food is there..
head home after that. and here I am! to Blog once again. I gotta off first. Nights!

Agape,
Paulus



Yeah! back again! Hopefully can be consistent so that this blog will not die! Anyways, I just want to thank god for the fellowship we had just now! the Sentosa trip! very fun too! and most of us turn black and red..Photo grab from Yi Hao in Facebook.

Haha, though we didn't do much of the time following through the games which are planned, least all of us enjoyed it amen? Despite quite a few mini arguements of sand splashing, we still made it back together and enjoy one another!

After swimming, we head back to Vivo to eat! enjoyed our dinner. and walk around vivo city. which we become stuck at Candy Empire, static-ing people =P. Static Empire -Samuel Lim. hahah! Then we do window shopping and continued walking! then head home.

However, for me, going home wasn't all good though cause, I made my mom worried by leaving my phone silent and she is unable to reach me. Well, I thought it may be nothing much, until I place myself into my shoe. what happens when you are unable to contact your love onces and remained alone at home for about 10hours without any news, well, returning home 11 and without accounting to my mom since 12 oclock. Well, I apologized and my mom forgave me. but when she noticed I have sunburn she took the cream and apply for me and I was just staring at her face.

Then I noticed that, we really should appreciate our parents too. its quite cliche but..really! sometimes God is like that, He scolds, he rebukes, he punish, but ultimately,why? because He love us! So I also want to thank god for my mom. =)

Then while plurking if you know what it is, something similar to tweeter( correct spelling I guess? ) I was just responding at my sheep's plurk since a few of his friends were like responding & spamming badly..So..

Legend in Plurk..:
The P = Prana
Ikanaide = Marcus

Quote:
The P says: oi oi becareful hor, he is mine!

The P says: lol sounds wrong

Ikanaide says: LOL !! im your sheep ... so it dosent sounds wrong

The P feels: *Touched!

At that moment, receiving that reply really touches me alot! thats is one of the sweetest thing a shepherd can receive! Well, you gotta be a shepherd to understand what I mean! Amen?
So I give thanks! and I gotta go! Nights =)

Agape,
Paulus



Hey, Back again, I am just gonna make it short. today, went to school for remedial, However, I was LATE! ( cause when I woke up, I went to sleep again.) oh dear, but thank God only got a small nag by my teacher. then lessons goes on as per normal until school ends. head home, to slack. Intend to go Vylan house watch movie. but ended up its only decided at 4.30pm cause no reply etc..And there was only the 4 of us..Originally, I really wanted to just slack at home..plus at home I can play games! but oh well, thank god that He reminded me about yesterday, that probably it may be a waste of time, but what matters is when we step out of our comfort zone to do so! So we watched ( Qian Bu Gou Yong 2 Direct Translation - Money Not Enough To Use 2) which I watch before! oh well..Truly the movies and transport doesn't matter but its as simple as a small time to spend time with each other! after that went to eat, and head home.

Upon reaching home, good news! my class mate asked me to play Dota with him! and my other class mate too! but oh well, I thought this would be a good chance to get to know my friends more and to play also la! however, the game didn't turned out well though..lost the fight and whats worst, I feel a small bit of upset or probably unhappy I don't know but all I know it doesn't felt comfortable and happy.

I thought like why, well! firstly because, there is not much relationships between us, compared to playing with my care group, we lose, we rejoice on our defeat because its a good game, and if we win, we rejoice on our victory! and when I played just now. it felt like a cold ending. whether winning or losing.

Therefore, a game is just a game! in the end, all goes back into the box! all will return to usual when the game is quit! but what truly matters is, have we changed our perspective to look and work More* on what really last? yeah amen? I gotta go off first! Nights! :)